A Howl of Despair (Psalm 42)

The Psalms have always functioned as a book of common prayer. But there is also a long history of turning to the Psalter as a sourcebook for poetry. It not difficult to see why. Many of the psalms foreground the act of speech or song -- the activity of utterance itself -- as the chief end of everything that has breath. In this universal work of praise the poet leads the cosmic chorus in giving voice to "Kings of the earth and all peoples" and to "Mountains and all hills, fruit trees and all cedars" (Ps. 148:9, 11).

In addition to discovering the joyful noise of words and music in thanksgiving, we are confronted in the Psalter with the power of the psalmist’s "I." The psalmist alternates between public and private worlds, and expresses a broad spectrum of emotion. He draws from a stockpile of images and metaphors that continues with astonishing vigor to "fly with the wings of the morning" even after three millennia, so that the Psalter’s ancient singing is always a "new song."

Where better, then, to look for suitable words to speak to God than in the psalms of David, God’s preeminent artist? David is the model for anyone who would have his ten-stringed instrument soar heights and plumb depths, who adores the Almighty "enthroned upon the praises of Israel" and boldly calls God into the dock for things done or left undone. "How long, O Lord? Wilt thou forget me forever? How long wilt thou hide thy face from me?" (Ps. 13:1).

Take Psalm 42, whose opening verse I will always hear in the unbeatable King James Version, "As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God." Footnotes suggest a scenario behind the text: an illness, an inability to make pilgrimage to the Jerusalem temple, the taunt of naysayers who treat bad health as a sign of divine disfavor, the persistent hope that the soul now cast down will once again be raised up.

So much for Sitz im leben. What strikes me is the way the text "works" as a poem. It opens with the psalmist evoking his longing for God as a bud of animal thirst. At the beginning of the Confessions, Augustine speaks about an inborn need for God that only God can satisfy. "Our hearts are restless until they rest in you." But the psalmist locates us in our bodies, asks us to imagine something more urgent than restlessness. A single deer, driven almost mad by the heat of the sun and stumbling across a desert landscape in exhaustion, suddenly comes upon water. A trickle between the rocks would have been enough, but suddenly there are flowing streams, "living water," in abundance. Nor can anything less than the sea convey the sheer magnitude of the blessing: "Deep calls to deep at the thunder of your cataracts; all your waves and your billows have gone over me."

At least this is the hope of the psalmist, who is dying of thirst, whose only sustenance has been the salt of his own sorrow: "My tears have been my food day and night."

It was not always this way. He recalls a time when he was not alone in the desert, but was part of a crowd on its way to experience God’s proximity in the Jerusalem temple. "These things I remember," he says, "as I pour out my soul: how I went with the throng, and lead them in procession to the house of God, with glad shouts and songs of thanksgiving, a multitude keeping festival." For these words to have their effect you have to have known the ecstasy of worship -- no tepid Sunday morning at 11 o’clock, but a baptism that made you weep, or an Easter vigil that brought you out of darkness and into light. The psalmist recalls times when his sense of the divine presence was so immediate and full that he felt as if he were beholding nothing less than the face of God.

But that was then. Now all that he hears is the sound of his own dereliction -- "Why have you forgotten me?" -- coming back to him in the relentless taunts of others: "Where is your God?" The Gospels suggest that such cries of lamentation flooded Jesus at the end of his life. The glad shouts and songs of thanksgiving became the mockery of the crowd asking him again and again, "Where is your God?" Could he say? Psalm 22’s "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" are his last words as recorded in the Gospel of Mark.

Words. The Psalter gave him a language for despair, metaphors to describe what it meant to feel poured out on the ground, melted down like a blob of wax, dried up like a broken clay fragment. The texts on his lips were already ancient when he learned them in his youth -- a mother tongue shared with countless generations before him. Nonetheless, like all true poetry, the Psalms seem to be newly minted, disarming, to be an utterance that comes straight from the gut as well as from the heart. A deer crashes through the desert’s underbrush, hunting for the water that can keep it alive. "Where is your God?" echoes in the dry air. A man at the end of his rope decides to hope against all the odds, to remember the Rock when he feels himself to have been left in the dust: "For I shall again praise him, my help and my God." The Psalms give us a way to howl as well as to praise, permission to bewail the darkness, and permission to hold on to a vision of light.

Between the Lines (Prov. 8: 1-4, 22-31; Ps. 8; Rom. 5: 1-5; Jn. 16: 12-15)

According to Emily Dickinson, you speak the truth best when you tell it "slant." I am quite sure when she penned this line the blessed Trinity was far from her thoughts. Nonetheless, her characterization of truth-telling is good to keep in mind when approaching this mysterious feast of God, the three in one and one and three. You must "tell it slant" because the direct approach simply will not work.

Yet preachers inevitably feel the need (not to mention the terrible burden) to explain. Men and women who normally would not be caught dead with a prop in the pulpit have been known to show up with an egg -- shell, white and yoke -- or an apple that is at one and the same time tree, fruit and seed. Embarrassment is palpable on all sides. If the preacher is close to his or her seminary years, he or she will likely reject such homely analogies and discuss the early church councils "responsible" for trinitarian doctrine. The more mature the ministry, however, the greater the likelihood that an aura of defeat or perhaps even absurdity will emanate from the sanctuary.

Why? Because the annual recurrence of Trinity Sunday marks the persistent attempt to make sense of an abstraction that is probably a greater stumbling block and folly than the cross. On this particular day, and without anyone wanting such a thing to happen, the mystery of God’s own self -- meant to be adored in light inaccessible -- becomes a puzzle to be solved, an analogy to be fetched from afar, a formulation to be improved upon.

Much of the problem has to do with the feast day itself. Unlike Easter, Pentecost, Christmas or Epiphany, Trinity Sunday has no narrative, no biblical story to ground us in space and time. (The same might be said for the other principal feast of the Christian year, All Saints, but in that case the narratives are as numerous as the blessed themselves.) As a result, the day becomes the celebration of an idea rather than what I think it was meant to be -- a glimpse into God as a community of Persons.

The scriptures appointed for this day are not particularly helpful. The selection from Proverbs asks us to consider Lady Wisdom. She brings with her a feminine dimension to God’s work, but probably the last thing a preacher needs on Trinity Sunday is yet another divine "person" to contend with! Both epistle and Gospel readings give us passages that assume rather than proclaim a Triune God. Paul tells the Romans, for instance, "We have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ . . . because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit." In the Gospel, Jesus comforts his disciples with the prospect of an advocate to come in his absence: "When the Spirit of Truth comes, he will guide you into all truth." In the same breath he adds, "All that the Father has is mine." These passages remind us that subsequent doctrine at Chalcedon and Nicaea has a basis in scripture. The creedal formulations, with their concern to clarify and define, grew out of a need to make sense of an experience of God as Father, Son and Spirit.

The text that takes us furthest into this Christian experience is Psalm 8 -- nine short verses which begin and end with the same outburst of praise over the sheer magnificence of God: "O Lord, our Sovereign, how majestic is your name in all the earth." For the psalmist, of course, God’s name is unspeakable, off limits, as incendiary as a burning bush and as dangerous as an eruption on Sinai. Given this, what can one do but praise the divine glory that surpasses moon and stars, and do so with skills of articulation that finally are no more astute than the babble that pours forth out of "the mouths of babes and infants"? No matter that we have been made a little lower than the angels, crowned by God with glory and honor. We still cannot say more in the end than what we said at the beginning of the psalm, "O Lord, our Sovereign, how majestic is your name in all the earth!"

Perhaps poets can serve the Trinity best because they know that truth can at best be told at a slant, between the lines, beyond where words themselves can go. Take Dante. In the final canto of the Commedia he brings the reader into the presence of God. Bathed in light, he first sees absolutely everything in the universe coming together within a book whose gathered pages are bound together by love. In the twinkling of an eye he sees that first vision become another: three circles of identical dimension make an appearance but each with its own distinctive color -- an image of unity and diversity. Finally, he notices that the central of the three circles is painted with la nostra effige, our human image and likeness.

What to make of this pictorial presentation of the incarnate Christ with a face like ours, at the heart of the Triune God? How to understand how uncreated light could possibly incorporate our finite, contingent flesh? The poet finds himself in the place of the geometer desperate to square the circle, or of the theologian intent on nailing down two natures in one person and three persons in one God. Try as he may, he finds the road blocked. All he can do is allow himself to be swept away by the overwhelming presence of God, caught up in the love that moves the sun and the other stars.

The Whole World Singing: A Journey to Iona and Taizé

I‘ve often wondered what sort of conversation Protestant Reformer John Calvin and Catholic Bishop Francis de Sales would have had if they had met. These humanist scholars were both trained in law, were both afire with the love of God, and both ended up in Geneva, Switzerland, though separated by a generation.

Both Calvin and de Sales delighted in the role played by all created beings in singing the glory of God. Calvin, in his commentaries on the Psalms, and de Sales, in his Treatise on the Love of God, emphasized a rich theology of divine providence and saw God as intimately involved in loving and sustaining the natural world. Calvin spoke of the world as a theater of God’s glory; de Sales spoke of beauty as God’s way of attracting the affection of all creation.

How can their common joy in singing the glory of God stir theological dialogue today? This was the question I took with me when I visited two contemporary religious communities where the two traditions are intimately joined.

A little over two hours by high speed train from Geneva is the Taizé Community, known around the world for the beauty of its chanted worship. This monastic community of a hundred Protestant, Roman Catholic and Eastern Orthodox monks was founded in the early 1940s by Brother Roger Schutz, a Swiss Reformed pastor. Having launched a communal experiment among students at the University of Lausanne, Brother Roger sought a site for a more permanent community in eastern France. He chose the village of Taizé, not far from the border of the Nazi-occupied zone. There, in the midst of rural poverty, his community stirred controversy with its clandestine efforts to help Jewish refugees escape into Switzerland, its organization of a milk co-op among local farmers and its use of the vacant Roman Catholic village church for daily prayer.

Seven hundred miles to the northwest along the rugged isles of Scotland’s western coast, a restored Benedictine abbey is home to the Iona Community. It was founded by George MacLeod, a Church of Scotland pastor who organized out-of-work stonemasons and carpenters to rebuild the abbey in the 1930s. Here, members bear witness to the concerns of liturgical renewal, social justice and ecumenical sharing. Here, too, the praise of God resounds in a daily pattern of prayer that echoes Columba’s first journey to the remote island in the mid-sixth century.

Like Brother Roger, MacLeod sought to renew the church with a liturgically focused common life that embraced poverty. As a pastor he had responded to the plight of workers in the shipbuilding yards of Glasgow during the depression. The community he founded on Iona became controversial for its strange mix of radical politics, a Catholic sense of the church and sacraments, and a call for reconciliation among Christians. Its members were accused of being "crypto-Roman Catholics in Presbyterian guise."

Both communities are based on a rule and a common life of prayer that joins work and worship in a Benedictine pattern. Morning prayer at Iona never concludes with a benediction; evening prayer never begins with a call to worship. Instead, the whole day becomes a continuation of the prayer that frames it at either end. Similarly, the three daily periods of prayer at Taizé lack any formal conclusion.

Soft chanting persists as people gradually leave to attend to other activities. In each place, praise gives continuity to each day.

Iona and Taizé are located at remote sites, places on the edge, where a concern for marginalized peoples expresses itself naturally. Both are determined to cross ethnic, economic and ecclesial boundaries. Both reach out to the world while also reaching back to an earlier local tradition -- Celtic in one case, Cluniac (or Cistercian) in the other.

But the places are also extremely different. Taizé is a celibate, monastic community of men living under a common rule with Brother Roger as prior. It has smaller fraternities of brothers living among the poorest of the poor in Bangladesh, Calcutta and Brazil, but the center of the community is Taizé. By contrast, the Iona community consists of 220 members spread all over the world, including lay and clergy, women and men, Protestant, Roman Catholic and Eastern Orthodox. They too follow a rule that requires a daily practice of prayer and Bible study, the tithing of their money in support of common peace and justice concerns, and regular meetings with fellow members. But although a small contingent of members remains on Iona to help run programs and welcome guests, the community in general follows the Celtic pattern of wandering missionaries launched on pilgrimage around the world.

Taizé appeals to the ear. People who return from Taizé invariably speak of the beauty of the chanted songs that constitute its worship. Iona appeals more easily to the eye. Those coming back from Iona tell of its Wednesday pilgrimage and images of holy sites seen on the walking tour of the island. The difference ultimately is more a matter of emphasis than of substance. Iona too is celebrated for its creative music (with John Bell, for example) and Taizé is surrounded by the beautiful vineyard-covered hills of Burgundy. Perhaps the two emphases simply point to a common desire -- a wish that the whole of creation break into song in awe of God’s glory.

I have two dominant impressions from my own recent visit to these communities. One is an astounding sense that the adoration of God is still very much alive at the dawn of the 21st century. The other is a sense of the breadth and diversity of the immense company engaged in this work of adoration.

The wind howled as I sat alone one afternoon in the great silence of the South Isle Chapel of the Abbey Church on Iona. My wife and I had made our way by two ferries and a bus from the distant harbor town of Oban. The wind beat on the wooden door nearby, rattling its iron latch, demanding entrance. From high above the nave a finger of wind located a cracked window and whistled through it from time to time in a high soft scream. The wind was soon singing in multiple registers, like the voices of Tibetan monks chanting. I was aware of something going on in that place wholly apart from me -- something I can only call praise.

Then two blackbirds entered the church, seeking shelter from the coming storm, and their songs echoed from the wooden ceiling and stone walls like a descant to the urgent melody of the wind. Suddenly, one of the birds walked up to me, only three feet away, then turned to enter one of the choir stalls -- as if to attend more properly to its singing. All this seemed natural in that place, as if nothing were more ordinary than a choir of blackbirds managing the psalms with exquisite beauty at the afternoon office.

Dare we imagine that the company of praise does not include all the rest of creation? I asked that question again as I sat beside the small, open window of the abbey library and looked out across the sound toward the Isle of Mull. Sitting there is like being aboard a ship. The curved wood ceiling, shuttered wooden windows and rough planked floors lend it a seaworthy air. My wife and I watched the sun rise from that window early one morning and listened to waves lapping on black rocks along the shore. The scene, framed by oak and foregrounded by walls of books, suggested John Scotus Erigena’s notion of the two sandals of Christ -- scripture and nature.

From within, we looked out with eyes formed by the word -- Gaelic Bibles, works on Celtic spirituality, histories of the church in Scotland. We gazed out at a "thin place," as MacLeod described it, a natural world as stark and simple as it is beautiful, hinting perhaps of other worlds beyond. In that one fragile moment at dawn we took our parts in a single community of praise -- green grass lit by the rising sun, a gull’s cry coming from across the water, two humans looking on with awe.

The journey to Taizé brought other experiences. From Geneva, my wife and I made our way by train and bus to the welcome center at the Taizé Community, and then to the little room assigned us in an old farmhouse. Sitting later that evening on the hard concrete floor of the Church of Reconciliation, I chanted songs alongside hundreds of others, and watched candles flicker against the bright red-orange hangings stretched above the altar. Built on a hill beside the village of Taizé, this church is an unassuming building that can expand to shelter thousands of young people who come speaking dozens of languages. One would imagine the chasm between these individuals to be impossible to bridge.

Yet something happens in the repetition of simple phrases put to song. The words and music, in French, Spanish, Polish, German and Latin, are echoed over and over like a mantra. Sound and meaning are gradually internalized until repeating the words no longer requires conscious effort. People of many cultures find themselves praying in one language, with one heart.

The phrases tell of adoration and human longing, of God’s tenderness and Teresa of Ávila’s consolation that "nothing can trouble, nothing can frighten." Notre Dieu est tendresse. Nada te turbe, nada te espante. Other chants exult in unrestrained joy: Christus resurrexit. Another melody celebrates the unity it extols. "Praise the Lord, all nations. Sing Alleluia." And not only all nations, but omnia genera -- all species too. From the red maples outside the church door to the yellow leaves of distant vineyards. Even to the nettles in nearby fields, once used by poor farmers to make soup. Everything is finally absorbed in praise.

We gathered in a circus tent for our daily meals (often just a bowl of soup and some bread) and for Bible study. Amidst the Babel-like diversity, Brother Wolfgang spoke alternately in German and in English, while others translated into Latvian, French, Italian and Dutch. He laughed at one point about our confusion over a particular idiom, reflecting that "despite all the difficulties, the problems of translation in our little European world are good. They require that we make sure nothing is forgotten, that no one is missed." He noted that in places like the U.S., where everyone speaks a common language, it’s easy to assume that everyone understands (and is understood), when that may not be the case. Carefully listening to each other’s languages is prerequisite to any community or common worship.

Out of my experiences at Taizé and Iona, I began to think about the theological insights that emerge from their particular ways of living out the truth.

The first is that the Calvinists, along with the various Benedictine traditions to which these two communities are indebted, have always emphasized sola dei gloriam, the praise of God’s glory, as the chief end of creation. Catholic historian Louis Bouyer praised Calvin for extolling God’s glory more than any of his contemporaries (even Ignatius Loyola). Bouyer regarded the Reformed tradition as "the most lucid and courageous attempt" among the original Protestants to recover a sense of God’s grandeur without minimizing the intimacy God longs to maintain with all of creation.

If we are transfixed by a common vision of God’s astounding beauty, then every aspect of our ecclesial, theological and liturgical life should flow from this center -- from the praise of God’s glory revealed most tellingly in the cross of Christ. Theological reflection should begin and end with doxology. Leaders should aim at setting people free to glorify God with all the gifts they possess. Action for social justice should be the form that praise assumes in the marketplace and other corridors of power. If these energies don’t flow naturally from the exercise of wonder, they have no life. If the church lacks clarity about its first love, then it has little to offer (from therapy to charity) that can’t be better provided by others.

Moreover, churches will not draw young people to their doors if they shy away from any mention of adoration as a matter of embarrassment. Thousands of young people come to Taizé because of a deep longing for contemplation, a desire to worship. I was stunned by their attentiveness to prayer. The whole earth wants to shout glory, as George MacLeod insisted.

A second theme arising from the two communities is sacramentum mundi, the reminder that praise is always local, growing out of the full history and ecology of the world in which it’s given. To rightly celebrate God’s glory is to recognize the earth as a sacrament of God’s presence. Bouyer warned of the Calvinist tendency to diminish the creature in the process of exalting God. Iona and Taizé, by contrast, would insist that God’s glory is far from diminished by entering into intimate union with all that God has made.

When St. Columba chanted "the three-fifties" (all 150 psalms) down by the sea each morning before dawn, he did so with an awareness that the whole world joined him in benediction. He knew that praise was natural to every created being. This sense of the whole world as celebrant of God’s glory ought to underlie every demand for ecological justice. The quest for a sustainable future is a theological extension of worship.

A final theme drawn from the lives of these two communities is peregrinatio perpetua, which has to do with the radically open-ended character of pilgrimage in the Celtic tradition. In its original form, this involved saints like Columba taking to his coracle (that bobbing teacup of a leather boat, without rudder or oars), trusting the waves to carry him wherever they might.

Such a spirit demands a readiness to "travel light," a practice of living simply. It also nourishes sensitivity to the poor, an awareness of the tenuous life that involuntary pilgrims face, and an eagerness to learn the languages that facilitate the crossing of borders. Taizé expresses all of these characteristics in its stark simplicity of lifestyle and its extraordinary practice of hospitality. This is a community that not only helped Jewish refugees at the beginning of the war but also fed German prisoners in a prison camp nearby. Compassion, as they knew it, is a wide land without partition.

This theme of ongoing pilgrimage may even challenge the church of the Reformation to examine its role as a separate body in the church of Jesus Christ. Was the energizing spirit of the 16th-century Reformation meant to persist forever in structures distinct from Roman Catholicism? Brother Roger tells of meeting with Marc Boegner, a Reformed pastor and president of the Federation of Protestant Churches of France. In the early days of Taizé, Boegner had been critical of Roger’s efforts to advocate reconciliation with Pope Pius XII. But near the end of his life, he wondered if Reformed Christians might best witness to reformation from within a universal church, rather than outside of it. He asked Roger, "Should we now, after the Vatican Council, say that the brackets should be closed on Protestantism?" Roger’s answer was startling: "Of course you should say so, because all the reforms sought after the 16th century have been achieved and more!"

I’m not suggesting that a simple "return to Rome" is the goal of Reformed and Roman Catholic dialogue. Actually, the longer I teach at a Roman Catholic university, the more fully reformed I become (and the more fully catholic as well). To envision in the new millennium a pilgrimage that takes us to an undivided church is not to declare winners and losers or to reach for simple solutions. The way forward to reconciliation is never simply back. Reformed and Roman Catholic Christians have to journey together, as Karl Rahner said, to "a home where none of us has ever been."

On the eve of October 31, 1999, my wife and I attended a service in the old Roman Catholic church down in the village of Taizé, celebrating the signing of the agreement between Roman Catholics and Lutherans on justification by faith the following day in Augsburg. In that small stone church where the community had originally begun, a Lutheran brother from Taizé celebrated a special Eucharist for a group of German Christians to which we were joined. We sang the chants of Taizé together and prayed for unity in the Church of Jesus Christ.

It was a foretaste of a community that John Calvin and Francis de Sales have already realized, a community that embraces Orthodox, Reformed and Roman Catholic Christians in celebrating the differences they bring to a common family identity. As Calvin and de Sales would remind us, it’s a community that includes the rest of creation as well. "It is evident that all creatures," said Calvin, "from those in the heavens to those under the earth, are able to act as witnesses and messengers of God’s glory."

That’s what makes Iona and Taizé so compelling. Open to all the sundry languages of the human and more-than-human world, they embrace all of creation in their praise. One of the petitions in the communion liturgy at Iona asks of God, "May we know that, in touching all bread, all matter, it is you that we touch." This liturgy exclaims in the end, "Therefore with the whole realm of nature around us, with earth, sea and sky, we sing to you. That’s a song that all of us who are on pilgrimage can sing together.

Holy Silence

In late June, weary of another long year behind a desk, I headed toward Ring Lake Ranch, an ecumenical retreat and study center in northwest Wyoming. A week in the high desert country of the Wind River Range, with time for silence and solitude, sounded just about right. I’d heard that Quakers have as many words for silence as Eskimos do for snow, and that they speak of various "stillnesses" as silky, heavy, light, dead, electric, even noisy. For months I’d needed desperately to explore something of that wide spectrum of quietude.

But as I approached U.S. highway 26 leading toward the Tetons and Yellowstone, I began to sense the full allure of the "Wind River Country" before me. I’d picked up a glossy booklet by that title from a rack of brochures at a motel in Thermopolis. Inside were listed all the wonderful attractions that lay ahead. Who could resist hiking through spruce trees to remote glacier lakes along the Continental Divide or sitting beside "spirit beings" portrayed in petroglyphs by ancient peoples? Who could turn his back on white water rafting down the Big Horn River through red canyons of Jurassic rock or square dancing on a Saturday night with ranch hands at the Rustic Pine Tavern in Dubois? I began to feel the siren call of "authentic desert and mountain experience," the hunger for a memorable vacation, the seduction of spiritual tourism.

How easy it is for North Americans to fall into a consumer mentality, even when we’re on vacation or retreat, headed toward the stillness of empty canyons! I wanted to do everything at Ring Lake Ranch -- go horseback riding, hike long trails through aspen trees along mountain cataracts, spot a grizzly on a distant slope, hear the howl of a wolf at dusk, study bright stars by telescope in the dry night air. I was eager to name new wildflowers and birds, to experience the badlands by moonlight, to acquire -- instantly -- the local lingo of the lifelong residents.

My temptation was to "get the whole Wind River experience." This is the charm of spiritual tourism, of course, but it is only another form of consumer frenzy, the fervid acquisition of knowledge, boogie fever. Even though I’d entered the wilderness, I was still compulsively "shopping," filling up the cart with new experiences and frantically heading for the checkout lane.

We work as hard at playing, relaxing or seeking spiritual rejuvenation as we do at working, because we view it all as part of the same acquisitive exercise. We are consumers of experience as well as goods. We feel guilty if we’re not continually acquiring new expansions of consciousness, becoming all we can be in a free market of endless applications of information.

That’s why people often return home from vacations (and even spiritual retreats) exhausted. Under the stress of "having so much fun" or "being stretched in so many new ways" we frequently succumb to physical illness. Our bodies cannot sustain the feverish consumption of experience we demand of ourselves. And yet curiously, it is when we’re physically "spent" that we at last feel immense relief -- we have the permission to do nothing that we had been seeking all along. It’s a comment on our whole manner of life, says Wayne Muller, author of Sabbath:Finding Rest, Renewal, and Delight in Our Busy Lives. We experience a release of pressure only when sickness strikes and our bodies collapse. That’s the only time we don’t feel guilty about not embracing new experience, the only time we can legitimately allow ourselves to stop. "If we do not allow for a rhythm of rest in our overly busy lives, illness becomes our sabbath," Muller insists. "Our pneumonia, our cancer, our heart attack, our accidents create sabbath for us."

Sabbath, Muller reminds us, is a profoundly counter-cultural injunction from the Torah. Sabbath demands that we stop this foolishness of throwing ourselves away in the endless quest for experience. God not only lures us to the Sabbath, but commands that every seventh day we stop and give up being a consumer. We are to take 14.3 percent of every 100 hours we otherwise "spend" to be still, to be conscious of where we are, whose we are and what we are doing. Otherwise we lose ourselves, and fail to learn with Gandhi that "there is more to life than merely increasing its speed."

It seems strange that God would consider the neglect of the sabbath to be as reprehensible as murder, robbery or deceit. To us, sabbath remembrance is the least important of the Ten Commandments. The idea suggests arcane 17th-century controversies once stirred up by repressive Puritans. We might be willing to consider honoring the sabbath as a "lifestyle suggestion," but as a commandment it’s simply too much.

Yet this is how it comes. In the no-nonsense tradition of the Deuteronomic School, sabbath isn’t an option to be exercised once we’ve finished our work and finally carved out a little time to rest. It liberates us from the need to be finished by requiring us to stop periodically whether we’re ready or not. Indeed, given the context in which the third commandment is proclaimed (or fourth, depending on Catholic or Protestant usage), forgetting the sabbath is morally and socially dangerous. The failure to withdraw and center oneself breeds a restless discontent that makes all the subsequent commandments necessary.

Thomas Merton recognized this when he commented on the rush and pressure of modern life. "To allow oneself to be carried away by a multitude of conflicting concerns, to surrender to too many demands, to commit oneself to too many projects, to want to help everyone in everything is to succumb to violence." It’s a subtle but real violence, and fosters a thoughtlessness that allows us to tolerate other sorts of violence. If I’m continually searching for new experiences -- relishing myself at the center of their vortex -- I can ignore the mundane structures of injustice in the world around (and within) me. I’m simply too busy to notice.

The temptation hit me anew as I found myself confronting the seductive opportunities of the western Wyoming landscape. It took the power of the commandment against unrelieved hurriedness to remind me again of my poverty. Others may respond more readily to Jesus’ invitation to "Come away by yourselves to a desert place, and rest a while" (Mark 6:31). Usually I have to be kicked in the teeth. It was a hard voice that I heard crying out in the wilderness, saying, "It’s time to stop, for God’s sake! You’ve hurt yourself and too many others in the consumer-crazy violence of your busy life. Just stop!"

Only then did I hear the soft, still echo of my own deepest longing. It’s not ultimately new and exciting experiences that I seek most, not even experiences of wonderful places like the Wind River Range. What I truly want isn’t anything that I can acquire. It can’t be taken home as a vacation souvenir or journal that I can savor during the long weariness of the coming year. What I seek most is God alone, the God discovered in sabbath emptiness and silence, the God who cannot be added to a grocery list of other happenings and thrills, who cannot be managed or comprehended, who can only be loved. This God claims me before I dare to claim anything of my own.

This God is never fully "experienced," much less named. The psalmist remains inarticulate, straining through the inadequacy of language to declare an intimacy for which he has no words. All he’s able to utter is the second-person pronoun. "YOU!" he blurts out in astonishment. "‘Attah You, O Lord . . . You are my God" (Ps. 86). Like Martin Buber, the psalmist stands speechless before the eternal Thou that lies beyond all experience. In the fervency of sabbath prayer, we haltingly stutter the words of the Gloria, "You alone are the Holy One, You alone are the Lord, You alone are the Most High." The whole of creation cries out in stammering amazement: Te Deum. "YOU we praise!"

We mutter this pronoun to ourselves, like a child delighting in the first mystery of speech. Sabbath is a time for reminding us that what we love most we’re least able to possess. It strikes us at first as an exercise in futility, something inherently boring. We resist its uneventfulness and its repetitive character, two things that a culture based on a craving for novelty cannot abide. In sabbath nothing happens. That disturbs us, because sabbath is not about me and what I’m getting from the experience. It’s about God, the One I meet most intimately in the absence of activity, beyond words, beyond the twisted cravings of my fevered existence.

Sabbath, like making love, is something you can’t learn to do right the first time and then be done with it. "The perfection is in the repetition," Muller declares. Only in the regular exercise of stopping and honoring the pockets of emptiness in my life do I give myself to loving and being loved. What else do lovers long for in their relationship more than moments of repetitive uneventfulness? These are the spaces they fill with love.

Yet one of the great ironies of life is that we don’t seem to be able to give ourselves to what we desire most. Even in the best of relationships, couples find that making love is something they have to plan for. In the hectic pace of everything else, it doesn’t happen automatically. Oddly enough, the exercise of our deepest delight requires something of an ascetic practice. Giving ourselves to our greatest pleasure won’t happen unless we prepare and open ourselves to it. Some of us have to be radically startled at times into recognizing what we’d been yearning for all along.

That happened to me the morning before I left Ring Lake Ranch. As I walked out the cabin door into a sunlit Friday morning, a bird came plunging out of the sky toward me, its wings outstretched above its back, legs trailing under its body, tail spread, as if plummeting toward a brook trout in the creek nearby. A hawk. No, an eagle, I thought. Then I realized it was the osprey I’d seen building a huge nest up near the lake. It dove toward me and then abruptly veered away in a great smooth arc as if to say, "Pay attention. Watch what I’m doing. This is for you!"

Its angle of flight took it to the top of a tall dead tree beside the creek. Without even lighting on it, the bird grasped one of the tree’s branches in its talons, broke it off with a loud crack and flew on toward its nest with the dry stick in tow. I won’t soon forget the crisp sound of snapping wood in the clear desert air that morning, or the slow powerful wingbeats of the osprey as it made its flight toward home.

In a world saturated with experience, the leanest images are the ones that most grip our attention. They stun us by their thinness and singularity. An osprey suddenly alters its line of flight. A sharp crack shatters the silence. A Zen koan flashes lightning across the shadows of consciousness.

"Split the stick and there is Jesus," said the ancient Gospel of Thomas, suggesting that we sometimes find God in the most unexpected places. In that early morning moment in a Wyoming wilderness, the presence of unpreoccupied silence was suddenly revealed in the snapping of dry wood. In the deafening stillness on either side of that sound, I heard a silence that filled the place fully and perfectly.

Invitations to sabbath come to us in a call to give ourselves to what we’d been desiring most from the very beginning: a permission to enjoy what we’d been wanting more than anything else in our lives. Why do we spend ourselves so recklessly for trinkets and trash when desire beyond measure awaits us? "Gamble everything for love," said Rumi. The thirst for experience, the hunger of memory, the excitement of rewarding activity -- none of it fills like the emptiness of God.

The Power of Myth: Lessons from Joseph Campbell

Theology and myth are stepsisters of truth. The one probes with questions, the other spins out tales on gossamer threads. But both serve a common mystery.

I was reminded of this recently in reading Joseph Campbell and Bill Moyer's conversation on The Power of Myth. This wonderful book is filled with pictures of Tibetan and Native American art, photographs of aboriginal initiation rites and drawings by William Blake. Adapted from a six-part television series filmed at George Lucas's Skywalker Ranch shortly before Campbell's death, the book moves from the tales of ancient Greece and India to the latest episodes of Rambo and Star Wars. Here the power of story still lives. As Campbell once said, "The latest incarnation of Oedipus, the continued romance of Beauty and the Beast, stands this afternoon on the corner of Forty-second Street and Fifth Avenue, waiting for the traffic light to change."

I happened to encounter the book while at Magdalen College in Oxford, home of C. S. Lewis, who was himself fascinated with myth. In fact, it was along Addison's Walk in that college one autumn night in 1931 that Lewis engaged his friend J. R. R. Tolkien in a conversation on myth. Lewis, who had not yet been converted to the Christian faith, experienced that night something of a pre-evangelical conversion to the power of myth. Tolkien had been arguing that the mythic language of silver elves and moon-lit trees carried a far richer truth than Lewis the rationalist had been willing to admit. As they spoke a gust of wind swept the fall leaves around them in a flurry of enchantment, as if to authenticate what had just been said. Lewis never forgot that night and the experience that gave birth to his love of myth, his openness to Christian faith, and his later forays into the land of Narnia.

Campbell's death and the attention given to his conversation with Moyers offer the occasion to assess not only his work but the general impact of mythology on the popular imagination. After Mircea Eliade, probably no one is more widely known in the field of comparative mythology than Campbell. For nearly 40 years he taught literature and myth at Sarah Lawrence College, and is best known for his classic works on The Hero with a Thousand Faces (Princeton University Press, 1949) and The Masks of God (Viking, 1959-68). His role has been that of popularizer and generalist, a Carl Sagan of the arcane world of comparative mythographers. His interview with Moyers ranges over the whole of his work, including his ideas on how tales of the hero's journey, notions of sacred space and images of the Mother Goddess still operate in the postmodern era. Our universe is not as free of dragons as we might have thought. How else do we understand the rush of New Age books and journals, the popularity of Shirley MacLaine and Jean Houston, the multitude of seminars offered on Jungian thought? All these indicate a keen interest in the power of ancient myths and mysteries. Whether this poses more of an opportunity or a challenge to Christian theology is something not yet fully discerned.

One might expect theologians to rejoice in the recovery of myth. After all, theology went through its own formidable struggle with Enlightenment thought. Yet theology and myth often understand their service of truth in very different ways. Theology may balk at an unbridled imagination, racing headlong without sense or direction, while myth easily chafes under the sharp bit of theology's critical restraint. The two stepsisters only partially rejoice in each other's gifts. Christian theologians can discover in Campbell a sympathizer who is also given to fault-finding. Such a friend--joining honesty with compassion-is not easily found and deserves to be heard carefully.

Raised a Roman Catholic and continually drawn to the image world of medieval Christianity as symbolized in the cathedral of Chartres, Campbell recognized the force of Christian myth. Yet he also harshly criticized Western theology and carefully distanced himself from the church. He saw in Christianity a deep distrust of nature and creation, an overemphasis on fall and redemption, and particularly a tendency to be bound within a cultural prison. Christian theology, in his view, needs the intensive and universalizing influences of mythology. Campbell frequently would contrast the priest, who serves as a custodian of facts, with the shaman, who functions as a sharer of experience. He was uneasy with theology because of its penchant for codes and creeds and its abandonment of poetic language. He cited Jung's warning that religion can easily become a defense against the experience of God.

The first question that Campbell's work poses, then, is how to see ourselves as a people for whom myth is life and breath. How can theologians, in particular, be called back to the vitality of narrated experience? Mythology, as Campbell knew, always aims to include the listener in the tale. The story of the hero, for example, ultimately turns us back to our own experience. "The mighty hero of extraordinary powers -- able to lift Mount Govardhan on a finger, and to fill himself with the terrible glory of the universe -- is each of us! " (Hero with a Thousand Faces). I am Telemachus, ever waiting for the lost father Odysseus to come home; I am Gilgamesh, longing to overcome the mystery of death. There is in me the blood-red hatred of Kali, who is consumed by his own rage; in me too is Demeter, the earth mother that loves and nurtures. I am Luke Skywalker and Obi-Wan Kenobi, the learner and the teacher, preparing for bold action. All these stories are my stories.

But our culture denies such a "participation mystique." It suggests that myth functions only as a dimension of primitive consciousness, and is no longer operative in any significant way. Indeed, the whole history of Western culture can be seen as a history of demythologization. The dominant Western story we have been telling ourselves for 3,500 years has been a painful tale of children who, in their progress toward maturity, have steadily cast off their illusions. We see ourselves as courageous men and women come of age, in the clear light of reason and critical insight. That is the modern story by which many in our culture live. But central to Campbell's perspective is the understanding that this story of demythologization is itself a myth, another story offering us energy and meaning. It is "the myth of a mythless humanity. " Its very insistence and repetitiveness in our cultural history, from Xenophanes to Voltaire, shows us to be incurable storytellers, molded by the power of myth.

As a phenomenologist, Campbell brought a sense of wonder to the study of classic myths. The most compelling dimension of his conversation with Moyers is their mutual experience of personal encounter with the truth of which they speak. Campbell's scholarship was never separated from life. He was eager to see mythology in the service of world peace and human understanding. He reached always beyond the myths peculiar to a given culture toward planetary mythology. "We need myths," he said, "that will identify the individual not with his local group but with the planet" (a concern shared by Asian theologian Tissa Balasuriya in Planetary Theology [Orbis, 1984]).

This is Campbell's most powerful critique of traditional Western theologies: turning all metaphors into facts, all poetry into prose, they tend toward divisiveness supporting and validating a given social order as divinely ordained. Flexibility is abandoned for the sake of certainty. The power of myth gives way to the multiplication of propositions. Simply put, theology gets caught up too often in explaining the meaning of life instead of seeking an experience of being alive. Theologians need to hear this criticism. Too frequently they have been guilty, as the Polynesians say, of "standing on a whale, fishing for minnows. " Theology is never served by an explication of facts that is removed from an underlying experience of the holy. Nor is Christian faith true to its mission so long as it clings to a parochial intolerance.

Yet theologians do have their own distinctive calling to serve truth. In response to Campbell's insistence that experience take precedence over fact, they must urge that experience demands critique. If mythology offers a way of narrating experience, giving it the power of story, theology provides a way of testing that experience. Furthermore, Christian theology--because of the incarnation--will always want to root an experience of the sacred in the particular and down-to-earth, being wary of vague, undifferentiated encounters with the profound. Western theology characteristically recognizes the particular as a route to the universal. It hears the summons of the mythographer to a broader, more planetary perspective, but it also knows the paradox that universality is sometimes best embraced through particularity. One often reaches wholeness by way of a very particular field of vision. That, after all, is the meaning of Christ incarnate.

Theologians therefore question the tendency of some enthusiasts of myth to borrow sacred tales and practices indiscriminately from any number of traditions and weave them into their own manufactured mythology. This fault describes not Campbell but those who would adopt his ideas apart from his sensitivity to history and culture. The great myths always developed within particular faith communities. To lift them out of those contexts is to distort the very truth to which they point.

Campbell frequently quoted the Hindu truth that "I am the mystery of the Universe. " Tat tvam asi- "thou art that" which is beyond all description. The stories of the gods are about me! This is a profound mystical insight, as proclaimed within the time-honored tradition of the Upanishads. But when extracted from its context, the impact of the sacred narrative can easily be reduced to the individual reception of it. The "me" can become more central than the transcendent mystery to which it points, in which case the element of doxology is lost; and theology, if it be true to itself, must always call the seekers of truth to praise. Campbell's work, because of its wonderful accessibility, is subject to oversimplification. Complex truths, formed in a community, can be reduced to the vague benedictions of an age of individualism -- "Trust your channel and crystal power," "May the force be with you." The continuing vigor of the great myths, as well as the most sublime insights of theology, surely deserves more than this.

Is the current recovery of myth represented by Campbell a movement toward what Paul Ricoeur would call a second naivete? Has it worked its way through the important criticisms that modernity offers, asking all the hard questions that a bold hermeneutic of suspicion requires? Or is the return to myth a step backward to a first naivete--a return to paleolithic wonder, a denial of reason and a simplistic retreat to a precritical past?

We must recover the power of myth on the far side of reason. Mythographers and theologians will both be needed in that task. Their narrative and critical skills will have to be joined.

In the 1920s C. S. Lewis began with Owen Barfield an argument on the relationship of myth and theology. They never completed it. They wanted to define the parameters of a world where mystery, revelation and reason could be held in tandem. The conversation had been anticipated somewhat earlier by George MacDonald. It would be continued by Charles Williams and Dorothy Sayers, and brought down to our own day by Frederick Buechner and Madeleine L'Engle. Each thinker has been concerned with putting imagination to the service of truth. Perhaps Campbell's work can revive their questions, and help bring together shaman and priest, tale-spinner and creed-maker.

 

The Spirituality and Politics of Holy Folly



Centuries ago in London there lived a gnarl-fisted, Calvinist moneylender to whom a Jewish merchant owed a considerable sum. One day the usurer proposed a vile bargain: he would cancel the debt if the merchant gave him his young and beautiful daughter instead. Otherwise the debtor would rot in jail. Naturally the father was horrified at either choice. But the moneylender piously offered to let Providence decide the matter, saying he would put a black pebble and a white pebble into an empty money bag and let the girl reach into the bag to choose one of the two without looking. If she chose the black pebble, she would become his wife and her father’s debt would be canceled. If she chose the white pebble, she would stay with her father and the debt still would be canceled.. If she refused to pick a pebble, her father would go to jail and she would starve.

Reluctantly the merchant and his daughter agreed to the test. As the moneylender then stooped in pick up pebbles from the ground, the girl -- sharp-eyed with fright -- noticed that he picked up two black pebbles and put them into the bag. In that moment, with her life in her hands, she had to choose what to do. She could refuse -- thereby sending her father to jail. She could expose the moneylender as a cheat -- thereby stirring up his wrath. Or she could take a black pebble -- thereby sacrificing herself for her father. It was then that Dame Folly -- a wisp of Lilith’s ancient mischief, perhaps -- led her to an act of the most clever foolishness. She reached into the bag, pulled out a pebble and, without looking at it, accidentally dropped it on the ground, where it was lost among all the others. She cried, “Oh, how clumsy of me,” and added, “but it doesn’t matter. If you look into the bag you’ll be able to tell which pebble I took by the color of the one that’s left.” The dour Calvinist wouldn’t dare admit his dishonesty, so of course she won her own and her father’s freedom. In fact, in the end she was better off than if the moneylender had been honest from the beginning. The final result for her was a sure win instead of a mere 50-50 chance.

That story, told by Edward de Bono in his book New Think (Basic, 1967), underscores the fact that there have been many times in the history of divine and human affairs when folly has been the cause of deliverance and salvation. A sudden paradoxical turn is frequently the Holy Spirit’s preferred way of liberating God’s people from spiritual and political impasses alike. The spiritual charism of Holy Folly is one that has been celebrated throughout the church’s history. It repeatedly stumbles onto new solutions in its madcap affirmation of the impossible. We need to be reminded once again today of its colorful tradition, its ability to nurture surprise and hilarity and its redemptive potential. This is especially true as we find ourselves involved in a great national debate on nuclear weapons and military preparedness. A Holy Folly may be all that can save us in our planning for tomorrow.



We live in the midst of a very different and unholy folly today that often hides under the guise of hard-headed realism. This is a demonic folly that threatens to consume us all in nuclear holocaust So it is important to be able to distinguish between unholy and Holy Folly. Both celebrate the absurd. But the one does it unintentionally, priding itself on being eminently sensible, while the other knows that all human structures (even the most “sensible”) may be ridiculous in the sight of God.

Think first of the structure of unholy folly that calls itself nuclear deterrence. It offers us absurd statements that we are urged to accept as perfectly sensible policy. It speaks, for example, of a deterrence (a defensive restraint of the enemy) that develops a first-strike capability. The U.S. Trident and Cruise missiles and the Soviet SS-18 and SS-19 missiles (all first-strike weapons) continue to be developed under the guise of deterring an initial attack from the other side. This unholy folly also speaks of a moral necessity for a defense that continues to multiply itself until the overkill ratio is inconceivable. We can’t envision more than 100 per cent destruction of everything, and yet we long ago exceeded that capability. We can destroy ourselves by a ratio of 300 or 400 per cent or more.

The most recent folly in this bizarre scenario is the increasing emphasis on the possibility of “winning” a limited nuclear war. High officials in the State and Defense Departments talk about ways of managing  “damage-limitation” in a nuclear conflict, keeping casualties down to a “manageable” 20 million people, for example. There are civil defense plans to spend $4.2 billion over the next seven years for “Crisis Relocation.” We’re told that we could evacuate St. Louis and relocate everyone near the Iowa border. We’d only need eight days warning of nuclear attack to make it feasible. The plan in Washington, D.C., is for people with odd-numbered license plates patiently to wait until all the people with even-numbered license plates have left. The Post Office has “emergency change of address cards” to enable us to plan for the future. The Department of Housing and Urban Development has a scheme for requisitioning houses “whose owners have disappeared.” This is absurd and twisted language. It makes use of an “officialese” to speak casually of that which is too horrible to name. In Through the Looking Glass, we remember, the oysters awaited being eaten, as the walrus blandly spoke “of shoes/and ships/and sealing wax/of cabbages and kings.” If we can accept the absurdity of nuclear war in language, we can make possible its fulfillment in reality. That is what is most frightening. As Heidegger reminds us, language is the very house of being. It creates reality.

In short, there is an unholy, demonic folly at work in our world -- adult, sophisticated, making claims of the highest pragmatism and legitimating itself by the appeal to technological necessity. Scarcely any place remains in our thinking for genuine Holy Folly, for storytelling, for the imaginative, freeing work of God’s Spirit among us. A deadly and dread conformity hangs heavy in the air. We lack the Holy Fool’s nurture of dissent. David Riesman spoke for many when, in his study of The Lonely Crowd, he quoted a  12-year-old girl as saying, “I would like to be able to fly if everyone else did, but otherwise it would be kind of conspicuous.” Many of us would love to experience a political and personal reality different from what we know, but we’re afraid others might think us soft-headed, foolish, even mad. We need the Holy Fool and prophetic storyteller among us -- the one who lives by a different reality, deliberately breaking down the structures seen as most sacred and traditional by others.

The Holy Fool breaks down structures of political order; when everyone else is silent before the royal nakedness, he alone laughs at the king. He or she may also break down structures of language, speaking a new jabberwocky or nonsense, using words in the most inappropriate way. The Holy Fool breaks down structures of social propriety by acting ridiculous and childlike, and by flaunting the usual standards of respect. As Holy Fool, she even breaks down structures of time and space, living backwards by anamnesis or forwards by prolepsis (as if the past still lived or the future had already arrived). Her ability to reframe reality is summarized in Conrad Hyer’s tale of King Philip’s court jester at the time when the French navy was defeated by the English fleet of Edward III. To the jester fell the awkward task of informing the king of the national loss. But he did so with happy aplomb. Pacing up and down, he muttered curses on the cowardly English sailors who were afraid to jump into the sea when so many brave French soldiers did it so readily. Such is the serendipitous style of the clowns of God.

The history of the sacred fool can be traced through many religious traditions, yet it forms a coherent spirituality in its own right. There have always been women and men who entered into God’s play. They jested, they told stories, they played the fool; and in the process they served the truth more fully than their sane and stolid contemporaries did. Frequently narrativity was their art, paradox their magic.

In the Old Testament prophetic tradition we find some intriguing examples of utterly foolish symbolic actions. Ezekiel, speaking at the time of the Babylonian invasion of Judah, played in the dirt like a child, piling up little siege works against a brick on which he’d drawn a picture of Jerusalem. Jeremiah wore a wooden yoke like an ox. Hosea married a known prostitute and remained stubbornly faithful to her. Again and again in ancient Israel God’s people were shaken out of their complacency by the foolishness of the prophets.

In the New Testament, we see some of its writers themselves recognizing the utter absurdity of the Christian’s claim that God was in Jesus Christ. Born in a stable to a woman who counted for nothing, Jesus came from Nazareth, the proverbial home of fools in first century Palestine. But, above all, the notion seems ludicrous that an incarnate God would be willing to appear as Jesus did before Pilate and his soldiers -- mocked as a king, spat upon, robed in purple, crowned with thorns, and led to a cross. Yet Paul actually celebrates this very foolishness of the cross. “God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise . . . what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are” (I Cor. 1:27-28). In other words, we all are invited to enter into God’s great Yiddish sense of humor. “We are fools for Christ’s sake,” adds Paul, “while you [stuffy Corinthians] are such sensible Christians” (I Cor. 4:10, NEB).

In the Eastern Orthodox Church, especially from the third to the sixth centuries, the Holy Fool was extolled along with martyrs, virgins and saints as a genre of hagiography in its own right. Many of the Desert Fathers, those ascetics going into the Egyptian desert in the third and fourth centuries, fell into this category. In early Russia, holy men walked the streets in rags, perfectly free to say the most shocking things to anyone (even rebuking high officials). These Holy Fools often had a strong christocentric focus to their spirituality. Focusing on Matthew 11:25, they understood childlikeness to be integral to the formation of an orthodox Christology. Indeed, some of the early fathers happily defined original sin as a matter of “growing up too quickly” (cf. John Saward, Perfect Fools [Oxford University Press, 1980]). Later, the medieval court fool helped people to laugh at themselves and all their conventions. What does one make of a 16th century jester who, on seeing a French ambassador kneel to kiss the pope’s foot, cried out, “Merciful heavens! If a representative of the King of France kisses his Holiness’ foot, what part of the pope will a fellow like me have to kiss?”

Between the 12th and 15th centuries, the medieval Feast of Fools reflected the ancient Saturnalia festival observed in the Roman Empire, when laws were suspended and customs reversed. A child or an imbecile might be made bishop or king for the occasion. The liturgical reading would begin with the words, “God hath put down the mighty from their seat and hath exalted the humble and meek.” Harvey Cox would much later sing the festival’s praises. But in post-feudal Europe, the holiday was eventually suppressed, its social and spiritual functions gradually displaced by the visual regimentation of printing, the work ethic and the ever growing autonomy of the technocratic state.

In the 16th century, Erasmus, the great humanist scholar and reformer, could still make fun of politicians, cardinals, lawyers and especially theology professors in his classic The Praise of Folly. But soon, in the post-Reformation period, many of the previously acceptable forms of mad and foolish behavior became unacceptable. Eccentric people were increasingly isolated in institutions, cut off from the rest of us for our own protection. Michel Foucault, in his Madness and Civilization: A History of Insanity in the Age of Reason (Random House, 1973), argues that by the 18th century insane people had come to take the place of lepers as the outcasts of society. With leprosy having become less prevalent as a disease in western Europe, leprosariums were now available for secluding crazy fools from the mainstream of life. The insane and eccentric alike were even placed on ships of fools -- traveling from port to port, never to disembark, in the hope that the turbulence of the sea would somehow match and cure the inner turbulence of their souls. Whatever the cluster of forces leading to the isolation of madness in an increasingly technological society are, the result is that we have far fewer eccentrics in our midst today. And the great risk is that, without the reminder of madness, we ourselves are allowed to live under the illusion of our own complete sanity.

Though modern technological society makes it difficult to extol foolishness, yet the tradition of the Holy Fool persists in nearly every religious faith. Judaism honors the shlemiel and the badhan, the professional fool who entertains at various festivals. Within the mystical tradition of Islam, there is a shlemiel figure in the Mulla Nasrudin, a semilegendary 13th century Sufi master. Pu-tai and Ma-tsu play a similar role in Zen Buddhism. The pot-bellied Pu-tai, a tenth century master, was often found with a frog on his head, all his belongings in a sack, making faces and playing with children.

Slightly different from the shlemiel is the trickster figure. The hero of many African and Native American folktales, the trickster may take the form of Anansi, the Ashanti spider god of Ghana. Brer Rabbit and the Indian Coyote are American versions of the same type. The religious role of the trickster, as Paul Radin and others have argued, is the paradoxical task of scoffing at rituals and breaking taboos, so as to underscore the heart of sacred reality to which they point.



As we can see, the Holy Folly constitutes a, distinctive spiritual tradition, expressed in multifarious historical forms and crossing vast confessional lines. It appropriates truth by childlike surprise, the childlikeness often being understood in a richly christological sense. It prompts a countercultural response to that unholy folly which threatens at any time to distort the deepest traditions of a community. It is not frightened by paradox, creative chaos, the femininity of the Holy or the remythologizing of the world by a risen, childlike Lord. What, then, are the implications of this spirituality for one’s life in the world today?

For one thing, it will require a study in nonconformity. Paul spoke of not being conformed to this world, but being transformed by the renewal of our minds. Thomas Merton described his whole life as committed to “a certain protest and nonacquiescence.” Jacques Ellul calls us to repentance for the values of a world bent on technological efficiency at any cost. The concept of metanoia remains basic to any Christian spirituality. In fact, the most political (and spiritual) revolutionary act is still simply to gain consciousness of who we are and what God demands.

Yet getting there may involve the disruption of our lives at many levels. There may be the need for spiritual exercises in folly -- specific means by which we can break down the structures of unholy folly that bind us in so many ways. There is a conditioning that is necessary for a life of folly. Only as we are experienced in acting foolish in little ways can we be prepared for the truly important decisions in folly we may someday be called to make. That’s why a list of eccentric suggestions may be an important aid to spiritual reflection for all of us.

1. The way we dress, for example, indicates the degree to which we are bound by fashions of other sorts. My own need, on occasion, is to wear bib overalls to work at the university where I teach. While this may at first seem strange, actually such a sartorial selection is ideally suited for academic use. The cluster of pockets can be filled with pens and pencils. The loose-fitting pants are adapted to long and uncomfortable faculty meetings. There are even hammer loops to remind one how irrelevant he really may be!

2. An awareness of our own language can further teach us how much our world is constricted by the way we talk. Thomas Merton, throughout his life, had the habit of writing “antiletters” to his closest friends. Deliberately full of misspelled words and bad grammar, they helped him transcend the limits that writing always imposed. In a print-saturated culture, where language is used to communicate abstract information, we must recover what Walter Ong describes as The Presence of the Word (University of Minnesota Press, 1981).

3. Time and space may even be structured differently for us. The sacredness and novelty of time can often be preserved by creating one’s own feast days, for example. In Herb Gardner’s play A Thousand Clowns, Murray Burns never works on the birthday of Irving R. Feldman, the proprietor of perhaps the most distinguished kosher delicatessen in Manhattan. Our time, like his, can be punctuated, twisted, made open to grace. Similarly, our problem with space is that we grow so accustomed to what we see that we no longer see it. Hence, many of us couldn’t even draw a picture of a telephone dial without looking. We aren’t aware that two letters of the alphabet don’t appear on the dial, though we stare at a phone every day. Can we list other examples of saturation perception? Could we practice taking different, even longer routes to work -- so as to revalue that well-traveled space we think we know so well? Space only becomes habitable as we go out of the way to see it in love. Otherwise, the less-than-habitable interstices in modern urban-suburban life become the space where the very poor drop out of sight altogether.

4. James Fowler has spoken of the need for a detoxification process for those who have been mainlining American culture. John Kavanaugh’s Following Christ in a Consumer Society (Orbis, 1981) outlines the formation of a “spirituality of cultural resistance.” Are there, exercises in folly that can stimulate resistance to a society given to the consuming and marketing of persons as well as things? These might include regular television fasts, clowning visits to nursing homes, the serving of guests at Catholic Worker houses, even the wearing of purple ribbons and joining of prayer vigils for peace.

Such spiritual exercises in folly are more than studies in comic action. They are movements of the Holy Spirit in teaching us mystery -- beginning points in a spiritual life of obedience to Christ and resistance to the world. They may indicate one of the deepest levels of our own spirituality -- where we most fully encounter the freedom of God’s presence, breaking in so often where we least expect it.



As Holy Folly accomplishes its work of awakening consciousness, it also necessarily stirs to action. All Christian spirituality must lead to politics -- to an incarnational affirmation of the polis, in all its dimensions. Yet too often the polis is locked into structures of unholy folly, unable to escape the dominance of “sensible” behavior. It persists in applying the same old solutions to the same old problems. Here it is, then, that Holy Folly would prompt a breakthrough into something altogether new. It may employ exaggeration, diversion and confusion as ways of releasing a given community from locked-in patterns. These techniques, as people like Saul Alinsky have shown, may suggest new ways of viewing political impasses fraught with violence. They may even speak to our present condition of bondage to nuclear proliferation.

Folly often makes use of exaggeration to push a dominant societal idea to its extreme. Enlarging the idea out of proportion, so as to see it better, folly quickly discovers its absurdity and reveals the immense energy spent in continuing to make it sound sensible. A story told by Kierkegaard describes the process well. When Philip of Macedon threatened to lay siege to the city of Corinth, all its citizens scurried about to throw up defenses, polish weapons, gather stones and repair walls. Diogenes, the philosopher fool, noticed all this wild activity and began rolling his tub as fast as he could through the streets of the city. When someone asked what he thought he was doing, he answered that he was simply trying to be busy like everyone else. He rolled his tub lest he be the only idler among so many industrious citizens. In laughing at him and his exaggerated folly, of course, the people of Corinth had to laugh at themselves. Similarly, Peter Sellers, as Dr. Strangelove, used exaggeration splendidly to show us our own folly.

Folly also exploits the use of diversion to shift attention away from what may seem to be the problem, so as to focus instead on what more appropriately deserves attention. In our original story, the merchant’s daughter concentrated not so much on the pebble she had to choose, but on the pebble that would be left. In the process of this subtle distinction, she discovered a wholly new solution. Paul Watzlawick and his colleagues at the Mental Research Institute in Palo Alto tell a story that sublimely makes this point. In one of the 19th century revolutions in France, a riot occurred in Paris. The commander of an army unit was given orders to clear a city square by firing into the crowd of rabble-rousers. He ordered his soldiers to raise their weapons and take aim. Suddenly the crowd hushed, watching in ghastly silence. Locked into such a head-to-head confrontation, what might one expect the man to do? With a touch of folly, he drew his sword and shouted, “Ladies and gentlemen, I have orders to fire at the rabble. But as I see a great number of honest, respectable citizens before me, I request that they leave so that I can safely shoot the rabble.” Almost immediately the square was emptied. In a moment of enchantment, he had diverted attention from himself as an authority figure, so as to focus on the more important issue of the crowd’s conception of themselves and their dignity. In laughing at his clever folly, the people were led away from violent confrontation. Somewhat akin to this may be Jonathan Schell’s recent exposure of unholy folly, as he diverts attention away from the dominant issue of national security to address the larger, more deeply human question of The Fate of the Earth (Knopf, 1982).

Finally, folly at times employs confusion as a way of intentionally blocking the left hemisphere of the brain (with its very traditional, structured approach to problem solving), so as to allow new imaginative connections to be made in places least expected. In Ken Follett’s novel The Eye of the Needle (Arbor House, 1978), the Allies are said to have tried confusing the Germans as to the exact area at which the D-Day invasion would occur. An entire airfield, filled with camouflaged planes ready for the attack, was prepared to detract attention away from the Normandy landing site. But the planes, all decoys, were made of canvas and wooden slats. Could we imagine today the equivalent of a canvas and wooden slat MX missile system, or a defense structure that values cleverness as much as it does power? After all, the mechanism of deterrence depends not necessarily on the weapons a country possesses, but on the potential power and resolve that the enemy can be persuaded to think it possesses.

We haven’t yet begun as a nation, much less as a symbol-producing community of faith, to probe the resources of creative folly. In the field of international conflict, outdated notions of a just war are still patched together to lend credence to contained nuclear war. We persist in classical, left-brain solutions to problems that require the most intuitive and paradoxical responses. As Thomas Kuhn reminded us so well, we value solutions according to their ability to fit into our traditional paradigmatic perceptions of the world, not simply according to their intrinsic ability to work. That’s why so much is demanded of nonviolent proposals for social change; they are so dissimilar to those with which we’re familiar. Society pays homage to unconventional thought and action only when they can deliver instant results. For example, Austria’s highest military decoration until the end of World War I, the Order of Maria Theresa, was granted to officers who turned the tide of battle by taking matters into their own hands and actively disobeying orders. Of course, if things had failed they would have been courtmartialed for disobedience (cf. Paul Watzlawick’s How Real is Real? [Random House, 1976]). In outlandish behavior, the margin for error is justly slim. Genuine folly, therefore, always entails the risk of being disgraced. It lives in proleptic anticipation of an utterly different world. Like Dom Helder Câmara’s Abrahamic minorities, it dares hope against hope.

Is there hope, then, for us in the spirituality of Holy Folly? The answer may be found in its ability to spark laughter, surprise and intrigue. Conrad Hyers, in his book The Comic Vision and the Christian Faith (Pilgrim, 1981), retells an old Apache creation myth which may speak to our own spiritual needs today. According to this primeval American vision, Hactein, the High God, first created all varieties of animals and laughed uproariously at their peculiar shapes and funny behavior. Then he made a man and spoke to him, saying, “Laugh!” The man laughed, and his laughter caused the dog to jump and wag its tail. His laughter caused the birds to break into singing. His laughter helped to complete all that the God had initially brought into being at creation. At last the man was caused to fall asleep, and he dreamed a creature like himself, a woman. When he awoke to find her more than a dream, he began to laugh and she laughed too. They laughed and laughed together. . . and that was the beginning of the world. That is how, for us as well, the world must always begin anew. The nascent laughter of Holy Folly gives rise to magic, and magic to story, and story to hope.

Inadvertent Ministry

Every minister is a Calvinist come Monday morning. Shuddering to think how little of one’s carefully aimed ministry has hit the mark the day before, one feels the truth come thundering home that often the most effective ministry is altogether unplanned, unintentional, even accidental. Were it not for the hope of such inadvertent ministry, many of us would despair altogether.

In 1737 Jonathan Edwards spoke of “the Surprising Work of God at Northampton” and, in the process, penned a classic in the annals of inadvertent ministry. By contrast, I’m exhausted by my own efforts at carefully programmed effectiveness and long to stumble into the serendipitous grace of which he spoke. In those rare moments of unpremeditated ministry when I do happen upon the holy, there is a Zenlike freedom and ease which characterize my best work. It flows without the constant interruption of my ego’s trying to imprint itself on all that is accomplished. How to get out of the way of what would exercise itself through me if I let it?

Something of an answer presented itself this past spring at the Fifth Annual St. Louis Storytelling Festival at the Arch. I had been invited to be one of the tellers. Though I use story a great deal in teaching, I’d seldom worked in a performance setting. So while I was excited, I was also terrified. But Laura Simms, a superbly gifted story-teller from New York City, was also at the festival. I told her how frightened I was, saying that I didn’t feel like a “real story-teller.” She then said something that I’ll never forget: “You know, I don’t think there are any story-tellers. There are only stories and each of us gets to carry one of them for a little while.” In that one stroke, she not only greatly eased my fears, but also summarized the whole mystery of ministry. In the final analysis, there aren’t any polished and professional manipulators of the Word, there are only stories that seek out their own hearers and tellers, in their own time. One never knows, then, who might be a bearer of the Word. Laura Simms had thus opened for me a way of being a vehicle for the gift without having to pretend mastery over it. She also had given me the perfect conclusion to a story I was to tell the next day.

The story was one whose skeleton I had found in a collection of Legends of the Hasidim, by Jerome Mintz (University of Chicago Press, 1968). It’s strange how the bones of a story will sometimes leap off the page, demanding to be put into flesh. This story was like that. It was set in Eastern Europe at the end of the 18th century. There in the village of Bobov, in the region of the rich, black earth of Galicia north of the Carpathian Mountains, a rebbe lived and prayed among his small community of poor, Hasidic Jews. One day a couple came to the rebbe to ask him to pray for them, explaining that they had never had a child, though they had waited in patient silence for years. They knew the prayers of the rebbe were able to shake the very gates of heaven itself. So they were jubilant when he said that not only would he pray for them, but he would tell them a story as well. That was better yet!

He spoke of three Hasidim who one year had longed to spend the High Holy Days with the great Lubliner rebbe, Reb Yaakov-Yitzhak of Lublin, also known as the Holy Seer. This fascinating rebbe, blind in one eye but steeped in the wisdom of Talmud and Kabbala, could see, it was said, “from one end of the world to the other.” People came to Lublin to study, to meditate, to sit in the shadow of the great seer. Anxious to join this company, the three Jews set out early one fall morning. Without food, without money, they determined to walk all the way to the Polish border and beyond. But after several days without eating, they grew weak with hunger. “Listen,” one of the three finally said, “it’s no great mitzvah that Jews should die of starvation on their way to see the Holy Seer of Lublin! We’ve got to do something! According to Torah, anything may be done to save a life.” Another suggested that one of them disguise himself as a rebbe. Then whenever they came to a village, people would welcome them warmly, thinking it an honor they should be visited by a rebbe. In this way, at least they’d be fed. None of them wanted to practice deceit, but reluctantly they drew straws and the unfortunate one became the pretending rebbe A second one dressed up like his gabbai, an assistant working in the house of study; and the third would simply be a Hasid from the community.

On they walked until they came to the next village. There they were greeted with cries of delight: “A rebbe is coming! A rebbe is coming!” They were taken to the inn, and the innkeeper, after seeing to their needs, spoke with great anguish. “Rebbe,” he said, “you must pray for my son. He lies dying on his bed at this moment: the doctors say there’s no hope. But the Holy One, blessed be His name, may at last respond to your prayers, now that you’ve come. The “rebbe” looked at his companions to ask what he should do. They motioned him to go with the father. “Don’t talk,” they said. “Just go with him.” There was nothing else to do. Having begun pretending, one had to finish.

That night the three slept restlessly. The next morning the grateful father, hoping the prayer might yet be heard, sent away the rebbe and his retinue, having loaned them a carriage and a matched pair of sable horses for the remainder of their trip. On they went to Lublin, where they spent the days following Rosh Hashana in glorious study and prayer, under the spell of the Lubliner rebbe. With his words the spiced wine of Talmud flowed through their minds and veins. But then came the end of Yom Kippur and the time to return home -- back the way they had come, back through the same village once more, back to return the carriage and matched sable pair they had borrowed. The rebbe pretender was especially fearful. His heart was in his throat as he approached the village and saw the innkeeper running toward them, furiously waving his arms in the air. But, to the “rebbe’s” joy and relief, the father embraced him, crying, “Rebbe, thank you for your prayers! One hour after you left, my son got out of bed and has been perfectly well ever since! The doctors say it is impossible, but he lives!” The other two Jews looked strangely at the pretending rebbe. Had he really been a rebbe all along, without telling them?

Later he explained that he had gone to the bedside of the child and stood there in silence, as they had told him to do. Then he started to think, “Master of the Universe, this man and his child ought not to be punished because they think I’m a rebbe. What am I? I’m nothing! Just a pretender! After I leave, the child will probably die and the father will be tempted to think that a rebbe can do nothing. So, Ribbono Shel Oloim Master of the Universe, not because of me, but because of the man and his faith, can it hurt that the child be healed?” He had done nothing more than that, he said. Strange that such an artless and inadvertent prayer should be heard and answered.

Having finished his story, the rebbe who had been speaking to the couple then said he would pray for them as he had promised. With tired eyes he looked to heaven and, taking upon himself the anguish of every childless couple in the world, he prayed, “Master of the Universe, this man and his wife ought not to be punished because they think I’m a rebbe. What am I? I’m nothing! Just a pretender. We all are pretenders! So, not because of anything that I am, but because of the couple and their patient faith, can it hurt that they be given a child?” The people of the village of Bobov swear that a year later the man and his wife brought their eight-day-old son to the rebbe for bris, for circumcision -- the son who had been born in answer to a story that was told and an even stranger prayer that was said.



I told this story under the Arch that Sunday morning, moved by the uncalculated ministry of both pretending rebbes. I added a postscript: I suggested that there’s a sense in which every story-teller -- everyone who ministers, in whatever medium -- can and must pray: “Master of the Universe, these people ought not to be punished because they think I’m a story-teller. What am I? I’m nothing, Just a pretender. We all are pretenders. So, not because of what I am, but because of the power of the story itself and their faith in it and in You, let them be healed.” Such a prayer, I suspect, is one God simply can’t resist.

A friend who is both student and teacher to me told me that he does very well at serving as host; it’s learning to be a guest that comes harder for him. He can direct and lead; he can make people feel at home and manage others quite readily. But it’s receiving and accepting, the gracious and humble posture of not being in control, that he finds more difficult. That’s precisely the dilemma of planned as opposed to inadvertent ministry. Perhaps the problem with most training for ministry today is that it teaches us to be effective hosts, while offering very little about learning to be joyous guests.

Yet being a guest at one’s own inadvertent ministry is a graced event, one of the most exultant we may discover. Maybe it happens most often on a Monday, when conscious ministry has been exhausted and we find ourselves seeking once again the back-road villages on the way to Lublin.

The Ordinary as Mask of the Holy



Experience may be akin to what Dorothy Day once said of property the more common it becomes, the more holy it is. Writers like Wendell Berry, Annie Dillard and Lewis Thomas all speak of the most ordinary things, yet find in a weasel’s stare, a swollen river, a snail’s strange life something far more than ordinary. How does one learn to see with their eyes? Whence comes that double magic of recognizing the ordinary as extraordinary and the extraordinary as ordinary? Standing knee-deep in miracles myself, I often glimpse only a world of profane commonness. The twist of focus that brings the holy into view seldom occurs.

The one great practical truth of the incarnation is that the ordinary is no longer at all what it appears. Common things, common actions, common relationships are all granted new definition because the holy has once and for all become ordinary in Jesus Christ. G. K. Chesterton s Father Brown became the uncannily clever detective that he was simply because he knew the truth. While others were always ready to evoke the occult and supernatural in their efforts to explain the most difficult crimes, it was this balding and unassuming Catholic priest who invariably solved the mystery by means of the most everyday, commonplace observations. As a believer in the incarnation, he really could not do otherwise. Having become accustomed to expecting the holy in the undistinguished form of human flesh, he now looked upon every ordinary detail with more than usual attention. What struck him as conventional and natural, seen with his eye for the peculiarly “normal,” impressed others --  ironically -- as miraculous. Similarly, Dietrich Bonhoeffer sought a this-worldly Christianity, knowing Christ to be the center even of that which fails to recognize him as such. Christianity is simply the process whereby men and women are restored to normal humanity, reclaiming everyday existence. “The Christian is not a homo religiosus, but a man, pure and simple, just as Jesus was man,” Bonhoeffer states (Letters and Papers from Prison [Macmillan, 1962], p.225). “Human beings fully alive!” shouted Irenaeus. “Such is the glory of God!”

Why do theologians so often lack the ability to consecrate the normal and natural? They too readily abandon the held, letting the poets celebrate the creation they leave unpraised. Part of the problem is that theologians find it hard to escape the rigid dualism of sacred and profane, subject and object, nature and supernature. Poets, on the other hand, can more easily think beyond such limits -- reaching, as they do, for mythic wholeness. Yet theirs can be the tendency toward a shallow monism in which God, the world and the self rollick in a syrupy nature mysticism. How does one learn to esteem the commonplace without resorting to apotheosis? The theologian at last is driven to listen with the poet’s ear for the muted and unremarkable mystery of the cosmos.

Canoeing down the Red River Gorge in Kentucky, Wendell Berry paddled past wild flowers pasted with reckless splendor on the banks. He followed the current into the quiet water of a deep pool and sat in the long silence. There, in a single moment of Zen awareness, he became present to himself and to the space he had entered. “Ahead . . . a leaf falls from high up in a long gentle fall. In the water its reflection rises perfectly to meet it” (“A Country of Edges” in Recollected Essays, 1965-1980 [North Point Press, 1981], p. 229). Such an absurdly simple and yet strangely profound observation. Had I sat for hours in the same canoe, watching many leaves fall into the silent current, I might never have connected those three things -- the descending leaf, the joining reflection, and the moment in which they precisely met. Although I know with Martin Buber that “all real living is meeting,” I seldom make myself fully present to those occasions when the ordinary whispers of the holy.

In his essay on “An Entrance to the Woods,” Berry describes the process of making oneself open to the mystery that often is already there. He says it requires a certain forgetting, a gradual clearing and slowing of the mind and body. Rushing by interstate highway to a needed retreat in the forest one weekend, he’s keenly aware at first of his disease on entering the threatening silence of the woods. He sleeps restlessly. But by morning, his mind and body have begun to forget the highway and the dissonance of the previous day. As he lies in the sun on an outcropping of stone, in his forgetting there is also an anamnesis, a deep remembering. Only then is he able to enter the woods for the first time. “As I leave the bare expanse of the rock and go in under the trees again, I am aware that I move in the landscape as one of its details” (Recollected Essays, p. 241). An entry has been found, the process made complete. Forgetting occasions memory, memory brings meeting, and meeting forges unity.

Daniel Boorstin, the American historian and librarian of Congress, speaks of the historian’s similar difficulty in entering the past. He tries to drive out of his mind all the hurried expectations of finding there what he knows to be commonplace in his own world. Meeting the past in its own mystery, therefore, demands an unlearning, a disengagement from those very ideas that one can hardly help but entertain. Says Boorstin, “The historian trying to recover the past is like the mythical alchemist whose formula for making base metals into gold would work only if he was not thinking of a white elephant. How can we recapture ignorance?” (The American: The National Experience [Random House, 1965], p. 472). The question is golden. How can I disremember that which prevents me from encountering the new (and the holy) in all of its simplicity? Learning, like real meeting, is never what one expects. It presupposes a deliberate unlearning, a willed naïveté. The spiritual disciplines all have exactly this as their goal.

What happens, then, as one is launched on this spiritual pilgrimage of forgetfulness is that the ordinary begins to reveal itself in new ways. It discloses a reality hidden within the commonplace. “All visible objects, man, are but as pasteboard masks.” says Captain Ahab in Melville’s Moby Dick. They point sacramentally to mysteries far beyond themselves. Ahab’s own fixation was on the great white whale as the mask of some “inscrutable malice,” sinewing the whole. Melville’s vision was a fixed, haunting gaze into the heart of darkness, but he knew the power of masks, the ability of the ordinary to evoke the numinous.

It was Martin Luther who explored the other side of that idea of the holy -- its fascinans as well as its tremendum. He insisted that God’s naked, awful majesty could never be pursued directly. In order to shield human beings from the unapproachable light of Gods glory, God always remains hidden, veiled by a mask (larva). Though not seen face to face, this God is yet encountered with a striking immediacy in the larvae Dei -- the created marvels of God’s hand, the bread and wine at mass, even the mystery of one’s own self as created being. They all “contain Christ.” himself the veiled and incarnate God. From this perspective all ordinary things assume new importance. They are masks of the holy: not sterile occasions for rationally inferring the existence and attributes of God, but vivid means by which God as Mother of creation comes herself to meet us.



The implications of this notion of the holy as masked in the ordinary arc drawn out more convincingly by storytellers and bards than by the theologians. Metaphor, with all its multivalent concreteness, is ultimately the most truthful servant of truth. It is said, for example, that a man once came from a great distance to study under Rabbi Shneur Zalman, the founder of the Lubavitcher Hasidim. This great rebbe had himself pushed upward the heights of mystical knowledge through his studies with the celebrated Maggid of Mezritch. At the same time only the brilliant Gaon of Vilna exceeded his ability in memorizing and arguing Talmud. In the balance of spiritual and intellectual insight the man was without peer. To this distinguished tzaddik, therefore, came the distant visitor. On learning of his quest, the villagers of Ladi all asked with pride if he wanted first to hear their great rabbi read Talmud or to hear him pray. Neither, he said. He wanted only to watch him cut bread or tie his shoes. The villagers were stunned as the visitor simply observed the rabbi sitting absently in thought in thc light of the afternoon sun, and then went away edified.

One begins to suspect that the contemplation of any ordinary thing, made extraordinary by attention and love, can become an occasion for glimpsing the profound. Lewis Thomas finds hope for the human species in the accumulative intelligence of termites, the thrush in his backyard, and a protozoan named Myxotricha paradoxa. He simply attends with the eye of a biologist to what passes beneath our senses every day. G. K. Chesterton once suggested that ‘‘it is a good exercise, in empty or ugly hours of the day, to look at anything, the coal-scuttle or the bookcase, and think how happy one could be to have brought it out of the sinking ship onto the solitary island’’ (Orthodoxy [Fontana. 1961]. p. 63). Such an exercise can be no small aid in attaching true value to the most commonplace of things around us.

Where can I not encounter the holy, has been the question of spiritual writers in every tradition and every age. “Whither shall I go from thy Spirit? Or whither shall I flee from thy presence?” asked the psalmist (139:7). Once our attention is brought to focus on the masked extraordinariness of things, we are hard put in to discern the allegedly profane. Joseph Campbell recognized this well in his book The Hero with a Thousand Faces (Princeton University Press, 1968). He tells of an ancient Hindu sannyasin or holy man who, while lying

down to rest by the hallowed Ganges, propped his feet upon a sacred lingam, the symbol of Shiva. A lingam is a combined phallus and vulva, indicating in a very earthy way the union of God with his Spouse, the androgynous unity of creation and chaos. (Unfortunately, Westerners readily take offense at the very idea of representing the sacred through sexual genitalia. Most Christians, after all, don’t believe that firmly in the incarnation.) A priest passing by asked this sannyasin how he dared so to profane the religious symbol. “Good sir,” he replied, “I am sorry; but will you kindly take my feet and place them where there is no such sacred lingam.” The offended priest roughly grasped the man’s ankles and moved his feet first to the right, then to the left, but -- to his amazement -- in every place that the feet touched a new phallus sprang from the ground. Finally he understood. Sacred and profane are ultimately artificial distinctions. Can the foot touch any place where there is no God? Having stalked the holy up narrow paths on windswept slopes, I’m brought full circle by discovering that I have passed it already along every step of the way.

The chagrin is that the realization takes so long. Most of us balk at the sharp paradox of God’s mysterious presence in the world. On the one hand, the ordinary reaches out to be noticed; it cries for recognition. The holy makes itself obvious in every turning leaf. Shug Avery, in Alice Walker’s novel The Color Purple, says, “Everything want to be loved. . . . You ever notice that trees do everything to get attention we do, except walk?” (Washington Square, 1983, pp. 178-179). How, then, can we so readily overlook the presence of the sacred? It is because, on the other hand, the ordinary also conceals -- by the very fact of its ordinariness. It anesthetizes the mind with its dull predictability. Saturation perception takes over, turning what we see all the time into what we don’t actually see at all.

This paradox of seeing and not seeing discloses the central nature of a metaphor. It is something which bewilders or disguises in the very process of revealing and making known. That’s why the notion of “mask” is so appropriate to the mystery of the divine presence. A mask identifies the character represented, as in ancient Greek and Roman drama, but it hides identity as well. It is this juxtaposition of the familiar and the strange that grants a metaphor its power to engage the imagination. Understanding the ordinary as a mask of the holy, therefore, is a way of maintaining a metaphorical tension between similar and dissimilar things. The mask is never able to contain or consume the holy, yet neither can the holy be known apart from the mask. Both must be kept in tension. We live in equivocality like fish in the sea. But our discursive minds seldom rest content with metaphor. We seek its resolution in a single dimension of clarity. We’re uneasy with ambiguity. In a course I teach on storytelling and theological method, the hardest task is to persuade students that the story itself, with all of its intense and colorful imprecision, is the truth.

Our tendency is to seek the holy directly, apart from any mask or ambiguity -- through what Luther criticized as a theology of glory. In other words, we want to possess the sacred without owning the ordinary. Trying to grasp heaven in all of its naked majesty, we denigrate the sign, the mask. We lift up its edges in order to glimpse firsthand the glory it shades. As a result, inevitably we look beyond everything without seeing it for what it is. We scoff at the commonplace in the process of reaching for a grandeur we’re convinced it lacks. Ironically, in doing so we miss both. The sacred in its naked glory completely eludes us, while we contemptuously pass by the subtlety of the mask itself. The trick is to be able to see the holy both in and through the mask, even as the archaeologist traces back the various layers of writing on an ancient palimpsest or as the artist explores an old canvas to discern the effect known as pentimento. Lillian Hellman offers a vivid description of the latter:

Old paint on canvas, as it ages, sometimes becomes transparent. When that happens it is possible, in some pictures, to see the original lines; a tree will show through a woman’s dress, a child makes way for a dog, a large boat is no longer on an open sea. That is called pentimento because the painter “repented,” changed his mind. Perhaps it would be as well to say that the old conception, replaced by a later choice, is a way of seeing and then seeing again [Pentimento: A Book of Portraits (Little, Brown, 1973), frontispiece].

It is this simultaneity of vision which the mask, with all of its multivalence, makes possible. I see with greatest depth that which I observe from different perspectives at the same time.



There’s a deep intrigue in the double seeing, as well as in the anonymity, that a mask affords. Whether we think of All Hallow’s Eve, the white face of clowning and mime, or the masquerading heroes of primitive mythology, the appeal of the mask is profound. Take, for example, the rituals surrounding the use of masks in Native American religion. The subtle dynamic of the mask as at once revealing and concealing, the holy is powerfully exemplified in Hopi initiation rites in Arizona. There children between the ages of seven and ten are introduced to the cult and mystery of the kachina masks. Prior to this time, the children have always considered the kachina figures to be magical beings bearing gifts or frightening them with numinous wonder. They have never dreamed that the faces of the dancing figures are anything less than the visage of the sacred itself. But in the process of initiation they suddenly are shown the kachina figures without their masks. They discover, to their dismay, that the figures have been their own male relatives all along. The masks carried by them appear to be mere false faces of carved wood. This is a keenly liminal experience for the initiates, brought as they are to the very threshold of formal religious life. It is marked by confusion, disenchantment and rich new insight -- all at the same time. One must not think that the child’s experience is merely one of disillusionment. On the contrary, says Sam Gill, what the Hopi child discovers is that things are much more than what they appear. The child is put into a position to learn “what is perhaps the most important lesson in his or her entire religious life: that a spiritual reality is conjoined with, and stands behind, the physical reality” (Native American Religions: An Introduction [Wadsworth, 1982], p. 92).

I sometimes ask myself if I, with my own neat Cartesian distinctions, have begun to learn as much. Am I able to accept the holy, without taking offense at receiving it through the commonplace? Indeed, can I discern my own relatives -- my wife and children -- as themselves masks of the holy for me? Luther insisted that the freedom of Christians is realized in our becoming Christs to each other. In wearing that mask,, putting on that reality, we discover in each other the presence of more than what appears. We are set free from despising ourselves and all the trivial details of our lives. Suddenly they become masks of the Lord Christ, calling us through them to an intense focus of attention and love.

This tenacious insistence on life -- an ability to attend unremittingly to the particular -- is what I find especially compelling in Annie Dillard’s writings. Her opening essay in Teaching a Stone to Talk (Harper & Row, 1983) describes a meeting she once had with a weasel in the woods near Tinker Creek. They surprised each other beneath a tree one afternoon and stood stupified in each other’s presence for a full half-minute. It was as if their eyes had locked and someone had thrown away the key, Dillard writes. The experience led her later to read further about such animals and to learn that weasels are known for the tenacity of their grip. Their teeth, like those of English bulldogs, are able to lock, once they bite down on something. In fact, an eagle was once found in the wilds with the dried skull of a weasel still anchored to its neck. Apparently, the weasel had struck the eagle in a desperate attempt for food. Missing the jugular vein, the teeth had sunk into the cartilage of the neck as the eagle flew off with its attacker in tow. Gradually the eagle then ate what it could of the animal dangling limply like a pennant from its throat. A grisly story, this -- full of fervid, sanguine ordinariness. Yet Annie Dillard asks herself, can I sink my teeth into life with such tenacity -- even if it means in the end being borne aloft as dried bones hanging from an eagle’s underside? That’s the only way worth living. “You must go at your life with a broadax,” she says in Holy the Firm (Harper & Row, 1977). And she’s exactly right. The created detail of all of God’s world cries out for merciless attention.

According to the mystical tradition of Pseudo-Dionysius, the seraphs are the highest of nine choirs of angels. They are born of a stream of fire flowing from under the throne of The Almighty. Being all wings, they perpetually move toward God, rapt in praise and crying, “Holy, Holy, Holy. . .” Yet it is said that they can sing only the first “Holy” before the great intensity of their love ignites them into flames, returning them to the stream of fire from which they are replaced by others (Holy the Firm, p. 45). Of such intensity is the fire that belongs to Annie Dillard. It is the wondrous delight that invites each of us to the contemplation of everything common, an invitation to gaze stealthily on that which would dissolve us into flames if viewed firsthand. At the end, then, I’m driven -- like the aged Lear -- to own what I have denied so long. To the once-scorned Cordelia, Lear uttered a last eloquent cry for prosaic mystery:

So we’ll live,

And pray, and sing, and tell old tales, and laugh

At gilded butterflies, and hear poor rogues

Talk of court news; and we’ll talk with them too --

Who loses and who wins; who’s in, who’s out --

And take upon’s the mystery of things

As if we were God’s spies. . . .

 

Take upon us the mystery of things, indeed. It lies there masked in ordinariness, whispering the splendor of a God whose name remains Deus Incarnatus. I discover it all: Wendell Berry’s falling leaf, the rabbi’s quiet pose, the lingam under every foot, the Hopi mask and the eagle’s flight. In each case, Dorothy Day proves right: the more common it becomes, the more holy it becomes.

“Split the stick and there is Jesus,” said the ancient Gospel of Thomas, knowing the ordinary to be fraught with wonder. The dictum is only partly true. Theologians rightly caution against any simplistic Gnostic gazing at the naked sign. The stick reveals its fullness only because of the emptied Christ. Otherwise a stick is a stick is a stick. The mask, therefore, is not the holy; it only suggests access to the holy. Neither the stick, nor the falling leaf, nor the wonder of my own children ever reveal the fully formed face of Christ. The masks remain masks. Yet the poetic insight still holds true -- Christ is the center. My eyes strain to discern the reality behind what I see. “Split the stick and there is Jesus; lift the stone and one finds the Lord” (95: 26-28).

The Breath of God: A Primer in Pacific/Asian Theology

The wind was still strong as we came down from the crater rim on Haleakala shortly after sunrise. Waiting alongside others in the 4 A.M. darkness, we had watched the sun rise out of the Pacific like an orange-red ember. It was a cold morning. Standing at 10,000 feet, people huddled in blankets against the 50-mile-an-hour winds from the East. The winds in Hawaii almost always come from the East, and are strong, steady, insistent. Like the frequent "northeasters" of New England and the sirocco of the Algerians, it seems never to cease. The ancient Hawaiians called it "ha," the breath of God.

For thousands of years this wind has formed the physical and spiritual life of the peoples of the Pacific. Its consistent direction allowed early Polynesian explorers to travel thousands of miles over the ocean in simple, koa-wood canoes. The wind has also brought rain, washing the verdant mountain forests on the windward side of the islands. In Hawaiian mythology, wind heralded Lono, the god of storm and rain and hence of fertility. Like Ezekiel and Job, the Pacific peoples have known that God often speaks from the whirlwind. Theirs is a faith shaped by "aloha," a word drawn from two roots, meaning "in the presence of wind, breath or spirit." In Hawaii, to speak of God means necessarily to be open to the often disturbing and life-giving wind of the spirit.

I went to Hawaii one summer to participate in the Pacific and Asian American Ministries Conference of the United Church of Christ. People from the United States and all around the Pacific had gathered to celebrate the expression of their faith in the traditional Hawaiian practice of talk-story. This, I learned, is a rambling, open-ended kind of storytelling, given to riffs of language and twists of fancy -- not unlike the movement of the wind itself. Its roots are in the experience of 19th-century sugar-cane plantation workers, who in pidgin English told stories of common suffering and hope. I had been invited to attend as one who supposedly knew something about narrative structure and the role of storytelling in faith traditions. But never had I felt so presumptuous -- as if carrying coals to Newcastle, owls to Athens or, in this case, fish to Hanauma Bay. I quickly realized how little I had to give and how much I had to learn as a white Westerner listening to tales of faith in a Pacific/Asian context.

In Hawaii I received a new name, one that defined me in ways I did not want to accept. I came to be known as a haole (pronounced HOW-lee) a term that Hawaiians have applied to white-skinned foreigners since the arrival of the British sea captain James Cook in 1778. At first they welcomed Cook as a god and believed his ships came to the islands on the winds of Lono, but his incessant and arrogant demands for provisions soon made him appear considerably less than divine. His men took the women they wanted and shot anyone who got in their way. The following year Cook was bludgeoned to death on a beach. on the big island of Hawaii. To be haole, therefore, is to participate in a less than proud heritage of cultural arrogance, racial prejudice and sexism dating back to the early European explorers and traders, the sugar planters, even some of the missionaries, and the large businesses that would eventually join to form the Big Five. The word haole, perhaps not inappropriately, means "without breath, wind or spirit"; a colorless, paste-white absence of spirit and feeling, an inability to appreciate the. land and the dignity of its people. This name challenges the presumed superiority of white Western thinking, with its tendency. to objectify and oppress. Yet to be able to recognize oneself as haole is also to be open to repentance, and subsequently to anew wholeness. To accept a new name, especially from those whom one may have oppressed, is also to entertain a new way of being.

To recognize oneself as haole is to realize, with joy as well as a certain sense of loss, that the gospel is neither as Western nor as white as many of us have been prone to think. The Spirit of God broods over the waters of East and West, breathing new life in both directions. Known in Hebrew as ruach, in Greek as pneuma, in Latin as anima, in Sanskrit and Chinese as prima and ch’ i, or in Polynesian as mana, the sacred wind of God’s breath cannot be limited to the categories of thought most familiar to Western theology. Asian theologian C. S. Song urges theological reflection to move beyond the Greek and Latin captivity of the church. In naming those people in whose intellectual shadow we speak the truth, Mo Ti and Gautama may become as important as Aristotle and Plato (C .S. Song, Tell Us Our Names: Story Theology from an Asian Perspective, Maryknoll, 1984)

How does one summarize for Western Christians how the breath of God moves over the waters of a Pacific/Asian theology? Hawaiian spirituality, as a story chanted to the sound of drumbeat and ocean waves, offers a compelling way of receiving the truth that Pacific peoples have to share. In using the term "Hawaiian spirituality," I refer to that amorphous blend of Chinese, Japanese, Western Christian and indigenous traditions that have joined to form the spiritual heritage of the islands. While it may largely have gone the way of other traditional patterns of life in a technological world (even in Hawaii) , it still offers an energy and wholeness that many seek. This spirituality celebrates the slow, deliberate movements of Tai Chi; the love of the land; the power of the oral tradition; the importance of family and the cry for justice. It is a story woven together from threads of the Pacific experience of the holy, an experience often very different from our own. As a result, it speaks with critical insight to the "breathless" character of Western religious experience, its tendency toward individualism and compulsive action, its Docetic rejection of the natural world and its general posture of dominance and conquest.

The themes that join to form Hawaiian spirituality draw much of their energy from Pele, the ancient goddess of volcanos. Known as She-Who-Shapes-the-Sacred-Land, Pele is gentle and loving, serene as her forests of staghorn ferns and Kukui trees. Yet her majestic presence in flowing fire and shaking rock also demands repentance, calling one back to respect for creation and reverence for life. Pele is the voice of God’s spirit, whispering in deep echoes from the earth.

In the disorientation of being renamed and identified as an outsider -- a white, male Westerner -- I found many of the assumptions underlying my worldview questioned. As told through the voice of Pacific and Asian peoples, the gospel has five interconnected pieces, each of them offering new understandings of how faith can be breathed into culture.

The first element is manawa, the slowing of time. Tai Chi is a traditional Chinese discipline of moving slowly without effort, as if time had been locked in freeze-frame stillness. Americans like myself need desperately to learn this exercise. Traditional Hawaiian attitudes toward time and work are very different from the hurried drivenness of most Westerners, who seldom have time "to catch their breath." Time, for many of us, is a series of short-winded, fleeting intervals, crying out to be filled. But manawa signifies instead "the lingering, gentle ebb of water across a tranquil bay," as George Kanahele describes it in Ku Kanaka: Stand Tall, A Search for Hawaiian Values. In this way of thinking, time isn’t so much something to be used as it is a place in which one tarries. Hence, Japanese theologian Kosuke Koyama speaks of a "three-mile-an-hour God," alongside of whom one walks without hurry. We can meet God in the patient, rhythmic breathing of one step following another C. S. Song talks about a "theology of the womb," by which Christians commit themselves, to the gradual emergence of a new world where justice and mercy are joined.

In Polynesian mythology, no hero is more famous than Maui, the mischievous trickster. In one tale, Maui captures the sun with ropes early one morning as the brilliant orb rises over the crater of Haleakala. After lassoing each ray of the rising sun, he tied them to a Wiliwili tree, making the sun promise to slow down in its passage across the sky. This would give his mother time to finish without haste her daily chores of drying tapa cloth and preparing food. As a result, Hawaiians have always been invited to share in the slowing down of time. Freed from the clock-ticking tyranny of chronos, they have opportunity (if they take it) to realize the kairos of each new day. According to the legend, Maui left his ropes attached to the sun to remind it of its promise, and at every sunset they can still be seen, trailing behind the orange sphere as it falls into the western sea. This portrays time as a function of spirit and breath -- something far different from the digital inflexibility many Westerners have made of it.

A second feature is aloha ‘aina the love of the land. The distinctive Pacific theology of creation deeply appreciates place. It seldom generalizes God’s presence in an abstract way, but finds it in specific places -- here in the circle of stones beside the Pandanus tree, there in the thick bamboo forest on the trail to Waimea Falls. The Kumulipo, one of the oldest and most sacred of Hawaiian myths, recounts creation not in generic fashion, as if sea life in general were called into being. Instead, the darkness of night gives birth to the coral polyp and sea cucumber, to "the barnacle and his child the pearl oyster." Creation is celebrated in its abundance and particularity. Creation virtually yells out to be noticed, as Annie Dillard observes.

This insistence of life is most telling on the windward side of the islands. There everything bends to extravagance. Flame-red torch ginger and plumeria blooms grow wild and profuse on the road to Hana. Yet everything dies in equal exuberance. The flora molds and rots, ever making room for the new. The wooden porch from which one surveys the sea is slowly carried away by tiny ants working everywhere underfoot. Green moss waits nearby to reclaim what had once been separated from the earth. ‘Aina describes all this: "the land" is literally "that which feeds," nourishing the spirit in its prodigal display of bounteousness.

As a result, the land invites respect even from those not usually drawn to landscapes of the sacred. The Visitors’ Center at Haleakala National Park on Maui offers an intriguing study of the unexpected impact a traditional world-view can make on the modern consciousness. The center displays letters from people, not at all given to superstition, who had taken rocks from the slopes of the mountain -- only to sense later the displeasure of Pele at their having desecrated the land.

"Enclosed are five rocks that my stepson, my wife and I removed from the crater (in violation of the rules) during our trip in July," begins one such letter. "We ask that you please have them returned to, the crater. We were fascinated by these rocks and thrilled by our three-day trip in the crater, but it was not until we got home that we realized we had, in a small but not insignificant way, violated the landscape and the spirit of the Haleakala Crater. We learned a lesson." The story is common. For our own Western search for a viable land ethic, founded on a new regard for Gaia (the earth) , Hawaiian spirituality may suggest forgotten and important insights.

A third aspect of a Pacific/Asian gospel is mo’ olelo. the power of the spoken word. In Hawaii theology is always to be chanted or sung. John Charlot observes in Chanting the Universe: Hawaiian Religious Culture that sacred chants were traditionally practiced on the beach so as to reproduce the modulations of wind and waves. To "do theology" the Pacific/Asian way is to connect one’s innermost being to the presence of God in the surrounding environment, by means of breath. It is an inescapably physical, sacramental experience. This contrasts with Western theology’s bias toward the written expression of abstract thought. We lack much of the vitality found in the lively exchange of talk-story. In a Pacific/Asian context, the Word of God is first of all understood as a spoken event shared among peoples. Mo ‘olelo, which means myth or sacred story, is formed from two root words meaning "series" and "tongue." A sacred narrative offers a flow of sounds -- a riff of language -- tripping off the tongue, intimately engaging the listener by the event character of its truth. As the apostle Paul knew, it is the letter that kills, but the spirit (the breathed utterance) that gives life.

Sacred tales must be spoken. There is power in their words, a force coming from the sound "breathed" into them. Westerners may easily dismiss such ideas as rooted in magic, but Walter Ong and Werner Kelber have shown them to be intrinsically a part of our whole biblical heritage (cf. Ong’s Presence of the Word and Kelber’s The Oral and Written Gospel) Traditional Hawaiians emphasized this oral power in storytellers, those skilled in the art of apo, "catching" the spoken word so as to allow the revelatory event to be re-experienced. Martha Beckwith explains in Hawaiian Mythology that receiving the word from such tellers was an auspicious event, heard only by daylight, with listeners careful not, to move, lest they interrupt the power of the exchange.

This ancient tradition is reflected in the contemporary Pacific/Asia practice of talk-story. Unlike Western narratives that strive for a balanced, formal structure, talk-story is a rambling way of remembering the past so as to create it anew in the changing moment. In the past century, Japanese, Chinese. Filipino or Portuguese plantation workers would gather to talk in the evenings near the pineapple fields. One of them might ask in pidgin English, "Rememba wen we wuz small kid time?" and the fragmented tales of the past would be spun out in the shape of fantasy, lending a dignity to the hardships of the present. The Chinese-American novelist Maxine Hong Kingston remembers that her mother would often talk-story to her at night as she went to sleep, making it impossible to know where the stories left off and dreams began. It is the nature of talk-story to be open-ended, given to dreamlike images, intimately available to the spirit.

A fourth factor is ‘ohana, the importance of family and community. According to the Kumulipo, the universe is an immense family tree; all things in it are related. A richly Confucian sense of reciprocity and deference to others pervades traditional patterns of behavior in the islands. Taking off one’s shoes when entering a house expresses the humility and thoughtfulness that was viewed as the grandest quality, even of a chief.

‘Ohana describes the family connectedness valued so highly in Hawaiian experience. Derived from the word oha, referring to the tiny, interconnecting roots of the taro plant, it is an appropriate image for the closely knit community where relationships serve as an anchor of identity. In Hawaii I had experienced hospitality and graciousness like nowhere else.

The traditional Hawaiian family carefully preserved its own proverbs and chants, its occasions for house blessings and the naming of children, its rites of inhaling the first light of day and the conferring of creative powers by exhaling. As in similar Native American traditions, "all these symbolic images and gestures are associated with the wind and with the breathing of the universe -- the visible motion of the power that invests everything in existence" (Jamake Highwater in Ritual of the Wind) To exist in family is to experience an insistent Chinook wind, blowing warm in winter and cool in summer, lending a direction and center to all that one does.

Finally, Hawaiian spirituality includes -‘eha ‘eha -- the cry for justice. This emerges out of the dislocation and pain that many along the Pacific Rim have suffered. This region has given rise to the Minjung theology of the politically oppressed in Korea. The cry of Asian people for justice has risen up from indigenous Hawaiians and Filipino plantation workers, as well as from Japanese-Americans placed in internment camps in 1942. The Pacific holds the restless memories of Hiroshima, Nagasaki and the plight of Vietnamese boat people on the China Sea. What Jerusalem was in 587 B.C.E -- a symbol of anguish and loss -- Tokyo stood for in 1945 and Saigon in 1972, as Kosuke Koyama explains in Waterbuffalo Theology.

In Theology of the Pain of God, Kazoh Kitamori suggests that the heart of the gospel is found in God’s own excruciating pain witnessed most powerfully in the cross of Jesus Christ. This pain grew out of God’s deepest longing for justice and love. The Hawaiian word for such agony is ‘eha ‘eha. Referring to the physical effort of "hard-breathing" or "panting," this is a heart-rending, lung-bursting experience of brokenness, not unlike a woman’s experience of childbirth. But out of it comes a divine cry for justice that refuses to be silenced. It arises even from the land as expressed in those protesting the U.S. Navy’s bombing of Kaho’olawe near the island of Molo’kai.

God’s liberating power for justice may be difficult to discern in a multicultural setting like Hawaii. The islands are marked by a holo-holo mix of Polynesian, Buddhist, Confucian and Shinto traditions, overlaid by the Judeo-Christian heritage of the West. What form can a united, liberating vision take in the midst of such incredible diversity? Again, the metaphor of breathing offers a common link. Rabbi Arthur Waskow tells a rabbinic story about the disclosure of God’s name to Moses at the time of the Exodus. As an afterthought, having revealed the holy name of Yahweh, God also gives to Moses a "nickname" to use with those people who may not recognize Hebrew. What is the name of God that everyone will know? "Yaaaaah" (the sound of breathing) , Moses is told. That is enough. That name will be spoken in the slave huts of Egypt. and uttered in pain by the oppressed. To that call God responds with hope and deliverance from bondage.

These themes speak to Western theology with a deep, prophetic simplicity. They invite us to the humble posture of the malihini, the "beginner" who always perceives the truth as surprise. Here it is that a haole like myself must always begin if he or she is to be surprised by grace.

On the big island of Hawaii last summer I learned of an early missionary who had arrived there in the spring of 1832. His name was David Belden Lyman: I’d never known of this family connection, even though my own roots go back to the same Connecticut landscape that produced this early volunteer for the American Board of Commissioners for Foreign Missions. Suddenly the experience of being haole took on a depth of meaning I had never expected. I was bound by ties of blood to those white-skinned missionaries who had first brought Christianity to Hawaii, broken vessels of God’s providence as they were. In generations past, I had been the bearer of a gospel that was being offered back to me, passed through the filter of an experience that made it Whole and new. I was now receiver, even. as my ancestors in Hawaii had once been carriers of a truth they never fully grasped. C. S. Lewis was exactly right when he spoke of "surprise as the signature of grace."

I’m told that the Maoris of New Zealand sing a hymn known as haha as they invoke the divine breath or wind on those being initiated into tribal mysteries. It is a holy laughter that falls like a spring breeze on people made newly open to the truth. Given the enormous unpredictability of grace, it seems also to be a gift made available even to haoles. Reflecting on theology in a Pacific/Asian context requires learning a new story, chanting to the universe, imitating the winds. It comes to us, finally, as a freeing movement of God’s Spirit across deep, blue sea waters.

Fierce Landscapes and the Indifference of God

I often tell my students that if I weren’t a Christian, raised in the Reformed tradition, I would probably be a Jew, and if I weren’t a Jew, I’d be a Buddhist. These three traditions engage me by the power of their stories, the seriousness with which they address the meaning of suffering, and their strange, even fierce, attitude toward God. The people of these faiths, formed by mountains, desert and tough terrain, celebrate, oddly enough, a sense of God’s indifference to the assorted hand-wringing anxieties of human life. In their grand notions of divine sovereignty and the embrace of the void (with its prerequisite emptying of the sell) , they undercut altogether the incessant self-absorption that preoccupies the American mind. They discover in the vast resources of divine disinterest a freedom and a joy that cut through much of contemporary pop theology.

I am increasingly uncomfortable with current images of God, as often found in books and workshops that mix popular psychology with a theology wholly devoted to self-realization. They seem to reverse the first question in the catechism I studied as a child, declaring that "the chief end of God is to glorify men and women, and to enjoy them forever." I really don’t want a God who is solicitous of my every need, fawning for my attention, eager for nothing in the world so much as the fulfillment of myself-potential. One of the scourges of our age is that all of our deities are housebroken and eminently companionable; far from demanding anything, they ask only how they can more meaningfully enhance the lives of those they serve.

John Updike has carried on a running argument with this very tendency. In A Month of Sundays, the Rev. Thomas Marshfield, a lapsed vicar who longs for transcendence, attacks the marshmallowy immanence of his younger assistant, Ned Bork. He speaks of "his limp-wristed theology, a perfectly custardly confection of Jungian-Reichian soma-mysticism swimming in a soupy caramel of Tillichic, Jasperian, Bultmannish blather, all served up in a dimestore dish of his gutless generations give-away Gemütlichkeit." Marshfield wants nothing of religion made amenable to human demands. "Let us have it in its original stony jars or not at all!" he insists. Why does such a harsh and unmeasured Connecticut-Calvinist outburst strike within us a deep chord? In a society that emphasizes the limitless possibilities of the individual self, it comes as a strange freshness to be confronted by a God of majesty, indifferent to the petty, self-conscious desires that consume us.

The three landscapes and three traditions mentioned earlier call us back to the mysterium tremendum evoked by the image of the Great Mother, Yahweh, Kali and Calvin’s God of sovereign majesty. They can teach us about the renewed importance of an apophatic spirituality, with its recovery of the via negativa, its attention to renunciation, and its emphasis on the importance of big drawn beyond ourselves into the incomprehensible greatness of God. "The world is charged with the grandeur of God," wrote Gerard Manley Hopkins. "It will flame out, like shining from shook foil." But we have forgotten. The austere, unaccommodating landscapes of desert, mountain and heath remind us of the smallness of self and the majesty of Being. They point again to what theologians once described as the aseity of God, a divine indifference that has as its goal the ultimate attraction of that which it at first repels.

It is only as the vast grandeur of the land drew him beyond himself that he began to find what he had sought. Walking one day to a remote monastery at Rde-Zong, he was distracted from his self-conscious quest for spiritual attainment by the play of the sun on stones along the path. "I have no choice," he protested, "but to be alive to this landscape and this light." Because of his delay, he never got to the monastery. The beauty of the rocks in the afternoon sun, the weathered apricot trees and the stream along which he walked refused to let him go. He concluded that "to walk by a stream, watching the pebbles darken in the running water, is enough; to sit under the apricots is enough; to sit in a circle of great red rocks, watching them slowly begin to throb and dance as the silence of my mind deepens, is enough."

Compelling his imagination the most was that the awesome beauty of this fierce land was in no way conditioned by his frail presence. It was not there for him. The stream would continue to lunge over the rocks on its way to the valleys below long after he had gone. The apricot trees would scrape out a spare existence and eventually die entirely apart from any consideration of his having passed that way. Only in that moment of the afternoon sun in Ladkh, as he abandoned thought of hurrying on to the monastery, did he receive back something he had unconsciously offered. Hence he declares, "The things that ignore us save us in the end. Their presence awakens silence in us; they refresh our courage with the purity of their detachment." Having become aware of a reality that exists entirely apart from the world of cares that keep him in turmoil, he was strangely set free. By its very act of ignoring him, the landscape invited him out of his frantic quest for self-fulfillment.

There is something clean and spare about this invitation to relinquish self and desire. But for many of us, so anxious to experience and possess everything, it is also fraught with terror. That is why, in the spirituality of Tibetan Buddhism, there are so many fierce Bodhisattvas: saint-like figures who harshly treat the ego with indifference. In their earthly lives, the Bodhisattvas had extinguished the candle of desire, but instead of relishing nirvana, they returned to help others along the same path. These peaceful representations of fulfillment in the spiritual life sometimes also manifested themselves as Terrifying Ones. Yamantaka, for example, the most powerful of the "eight dreadful deities" in tantric lore, was pictured with flailing arms in an aura of red flames and smoke. He could evoke a sense of menacing terror in those clinging to their own ego, but his purpose was to "rouse the deluded spirit to inward contemplation and reversal, to purification and, after the conquest of fear, a safe passage through terror" (Detlef Ingo Lauf, Tibetan Sacred Art: The Heritage of Tantra [Shambhala Publications, 19761, p. 171) In the frightening experience of having our fragile egos ignored, we are thrust beyond fear to a grace unexpected. Such, at least, was the experience of Andrew Harvey in the mountain-enclosed desert of rock that is Ladakh. There he was stunned to joy by rejecting the self-dramatizing intensities by which he had lived.

This is a strange dimension in Jewish spirituality. It is Moses’ experience at Sinai (Exod. 19) , Elijah’s in the cave on Mt. Horeb (I Kings 19) , and Second Isaiah’s as he offers "comfort" to Jerusalem by pointing to an awesome God entirely removed from the vanity of human fretfulness (Isa. 40) This is the God who "sits above the circle of the earth, with all of its inhabitants like grasshoppers." It would be easy to miss the subtlety of this religious experience by dismissing it as scare mongering patriarchal primitivism. There is more to it than that. What ancient Israel found in this context of untamed landscapes was a Fierce Mother, as well as Gentle Father, who woos her children to a relationship of deeper maturity. One is astonished, in standing nakedly before the divine resplendence, to discover that a grand and new wholeness comes to replace all that has been lost. John Newton, the ex-slave ship captain and hymn-writer, knew this well when he spoke of a "grace that taught my heart to fear and grace my fears relieved." The indifference of God turns out at last to be but another form of God’s insistent love.

Within Christianity, the theme of divine majesty is celebrated most characteristically in the Reformed tradition. From Calvin to Barth has echoed a thundering fugue on the glory of God. Calvin found in Job and Isaiah the finest examples of God’s praise through the turbulence of sea and skyscape (Institutes, I.V.6) He knew the Lord God to be one who "comes with might," "who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand and marked off the heavens with a span" (Isa. 40:12) On the wide heaths of Scotland and the rocky shorelines of New England, a baroque grandiosity would come to characterize this Reformed spirituality. In its excesses, it led some to exult in their willingness to be damned for the glory of God. But its finest exemplars, like Jonathan Edwards, never viewed the divine indifference as an end in itself. Walking over his father’s farm in the western Massachusetts woods, he found that the fear of God’s grandeur unleashed in wild thunderstorms led ultimately to grace (cf. Edwards’s Personal Narrative of 1740).

In the fixed idea of divine sovereignty that forms the heart of Reformed spirituality, one must discern more than a worn-out devotion to a stern God of patriarchal splendor. Ernst Troeltsch argued that such a theology was also rich in implications for the understanding of the self. A focus on the divine majesty brought with it a corresponding tendency to de-emphasize the ego and its inordinant concern for self-aggrandizement. In Calvinist spirituality, "a constant preoccupation with personal moods and feelings is entirely unnecessary." For Calvin, the chief concern was not with a self-centered personal salvation, but with the glory of God.

This offers an important corrective to the simplistic self-help theologies in religious circles today. To be engrossed in the self is, paradoxically, to lose it altogether, as Jesus suggested (Mark 8:35) Reformed theology would insist that the liberation of the true self in Christ comes only by ignoring the false self, as it is overshadowed and driven to utter silence by a God "in light inaccessible, hid from our eyes." When the self has been wholly abandoned, only then is there the possibility of seeing it restored in Christ. Having lost one’s life, it comes rushing back as divine gift.

Anthony de Mello, in a tale from his recent book One Minute Wisdom, describes this paradox. "Before I was 20," he says, "I never worried about what other people thought of me. But after I was 20 I worried endlessly -- about all the impressions I made and how people were evaluating me. Only sometime after turning 50 did I realize that they hardly ever thought about me at all." So often we presume ourselves to be at the center of everyone’s attention, and end up performing for an audience that isn’t there. Our chief loss, in the process, is having missed the gift of blessed indifference offered to us all along. "We are saved in the end by the things that ignore us."

The inattentiveness of the desert provides an inexplicable healing. Meinrad Craighead found this in her experience among the sandstone flats and underground kivas of the Pueblo Indians. "When I came to New Mexico in 1960," she wrote, "I found the land which matched my interior landscape. The door separating inside and outside opened. What my eyes saw meshed with images I carried inside my body. Pictures painted on the walls of my womb began to emerge" (The Mother’s Songs: Images of God the Mother [Paulist Press, 1986], p. 67) She discovered the Great Mother in the awesome beauty of the desert, brooding over a world still in the process of being born. She found hope where others might have experienced only despair. In being ignored, she was unexpectedly given back her truest self.

Fierce landscapes can be read in many ways. Always unpredictable, they are frightening as well as indifferent, a terror to some and a solace to others. They offer no guarantee of God, even though the three traditions considered here are accustomed to experiencing the sacred in the threatening emptiness of space. Not everyone discerns the holy lurking as a dread presence in a dark canyon before a summer storm. Edward Abbey was one who exulted in the fact that the desert offers absolutely nothing. Its hold on the imagination is the power of subtraction, the abandonment of all names and meanings.

Abbey died recently. He was as lean and rough-edged as his prose, and he had no use for religious interpretations of landscape. Yet his descriptions of the "Great American Desert" often bring to mind the lush emptiness of John of the Cross or the harsh images of Kierkegaard, echoing over the Danish moor. He insisted that people must be half crazy to think of going into the desert, given all of its dangers and discomforts. He wondered why he even bothered writing about it. Yet something irrational and unexplained required it of him.

Visiting the remote gorge of Nasja Creek in Arizona one summer, Abbey walked along its amber stream in the deep shadows of canyon walls towering hundreds of feet above on either side. At one point he made his way toward the distant sun in a slow and pathless ascent along the east wall. No human being had been that way for years, he thought, maybe never. But as he reached the canyon rim, breaking into the bright light of the vast desert floor, he saw the remains of an arrow design laid in broken stone near the edge. It pointed off to the north, toward more of the same purple vistas and twisted canyons that he had seen for the past week or more. He searched in that direction for some irregular line on the distant horizon, an old ruin or sacred site to which the ancient arrow might have pointed. There was nothing. Nothing but the desert. . . and its blessed indifference. Nothing but a desolate silence that filled the earth with its emptiness. Nothing. With a savage and unaccountable joy, he descended the gorge once again, knowing why it was that he had to walk and write about deserts. The sheer nothingness of it refused to let him go (The Journey Home [Dutton, 1977])

The power of Abbey’s encounter, and others like it, is found in the fact that what is met cannot be named. It can be painted perhaps, as Georgia O’Keeffe learned, giving a spare beauty to the dry bones of the New Mexican desert she had come to love. But it can’t be named. Fierce landscapes offer none of the comforts of reason. At the extremities of geography, beyond the civilized precincts of all that is safe, we enter the dread terrain of our own extremities as conscious selves. Yet in that fearful ending we discover also a joyous new beginning.

Stretched out over the edge of a deep precipice, one hand clutching the branch of a blue Juniper growing from the rock, we peer down as far as we dare. We see nothing -- only the motionless soaring of red-tailed hawks in the canyon far below. We are drawn, though, by an indifference, whose other name is love. We sense an invitation to emptiness. It begins to grow in us, like a vast silence. There is fear, knowing that in hanging there, we will be destroyed. The roots of the Juniper begin to loosen from their crevice in the rock. Yet a senseless joy bids us stay. And when we fall, it is a long, slow descent, feathers being unfamiliar to us. We wing our way across the borders of a new consciousness, adjusting uneasily to warm-air currents drifting upward. The circling hawks we had studied from above have drawn us by their indifference far more than we might have imagined. With them, we become part of a great void that seems strangely akin to love. The sky opens out into a thin, orange line over the dark horizon and we head with the others toward home. "We are saved in the end by the things that ignore us."