Wild Fire (Job 19: 23-27a)

"For I know that my Redeemer lives, and that at the last he will stand upon the earth; and after my skin has been thus destroyed, then in my flesh I shall see God" (Job 19: 25-27a).

Job sees God as fire. In God’s presence, Job’s skin burns away, yet he remains intact to behold God for himself. It is the mystery of T. S. Eliot’s two kinds of fire in The Four Quartets. One fire consumes while the other purifies. For Job, to step into God’s presence is to be purified in order that "in my flesh I shall see God." This is the traditional, threefold mystical way of purgation, illumination and union. We must first endure the suffering that comes as we withdraw Prom evil and sin in order to see God, and then we can participate in union with God.

It is tricky, however, to suggest that suffering as purgation is a necessary step to God. It is deceptive because so many have come before us simply to impose suffering on us. I recently told an Episcopal priest whom I was leading in spiritual direction that until he used the motivation of joy instead of guilt, he would never be able to stop smoking. But Job’s situation was different. He tells us that his body was literally smoking from affliction.

Throughout history, human suffering has been so severe that St. Teresa of Avila cried to God, "No wonder your friends are so few, considering how you treat them." The age-old question is "Why does God allow suffering?" The age-old answer is that we are called not to escape reality through an illusory existence, but to endure suffering as participation in the salvation of the world. Perhaps Karl Marx was right in describing Western Christians as being on drugs, unable to effect systemic change in the real world. He is wrong, however, when Christians, like Job, envision how God’s very presence demands systemic change on earth. When we see God, we Christians are enflamed and cannot escape sharing the suffering of our neighbors. To live in God is to live in wild fire, tamed, as it purifies the powers and principalities of the world.

And so when a church suffers, one may see the strange reality of that church caught on fire as God transforms its people into the salt of the earth. Like Job, when we suffer we catch a better glimpse of God: ". . . then in my flesh I shall see God." While on fire, the worst thing we can do as the church is cut and run for our lives, thinking somehow the fire will be blown out by our running away. Running from our responsibilities of peacemaking and reconciliation only makes the fire spread more. What we need is an enveloping presence, one that surrounds us like a blanket, for if we fail in living into presence for the sake of the world, in some sense God also fails.

The church often supports oppressive political and military regimes, thus turning Christ’s suffering into a destructive reality, a civil religion supportive only of the rich and powerful. Of course, in the end this is not God, but an idol used to rally the masses to war. As Christians, we must correct the delusions about God’s image. As Job states. "After my skin has been thus destroyed . . . I shall see God." In other words, our suffering strips away the false gods and false selves who make claims on being the living God. We are then led to union with God. We should not create suffering nor should we impose it on others. But we participate in the suffering of the world in such a way as to end others’ suffering.

Desmond Tutu loves a book of cartoons by Mel Calman titled My God. Tutu describes one cartoon that shows God looking disconsolate as he reads a poster that says, "God is dead."

"That," God remarks, "makes me feel insecure."

Perhaps I should feel insecure in making the claim that Christians are called to suffer, but consider the vision of Job, who sees God only "after my skin has been thus destroyed." And so I must claim that we are called to suffer if we want to see the living God. Until then we will only see false gods running amok, creating havoc and setting a consuming fire to the world. Just flip the remote control, or pick your favorite war or attend church conventions. These gods live in the contradictions. These gods live in military badges. These gods live in racial profiling. And these gods live in economic markets that exploit poorer nations.

We learn to worship the God in Christ by participating in Christ’s suffering. Our image of God is better revealed "after my skin has been thus destroyed."

A disciple once came to Abba Joseph, saying, "Father, according as I am able, I keep my little rule, my little fast and my little prayer. I strive to cleanse my mind of all evil thoughts and my heart of all evil intents. Now, what more should I do?"

Abba Joseph rose up and stretched out his hands to heaven, and his fingers became like ten lamps of fire. He answered, "Why not be totally changed into fire?"

It is a difficult mystery -- how participating in God’s suffering enables us to survive our current suffering. But this mystery informs our ultimate knowledge that our suffering is not capricious, but leads to the day of union with a God who is fire.

The Other Kingdom (Luke 23:33-43)

"See, I am sending you out like lambs into the midst of wolves" (Luke 10:3).

If human beings grew up individually among wolves, they would not know what to do as human beings. There would not be a human posture or human ways of eating, sitting or walking. Human beings become persons only by living in a human environment. Without it, human personhood does not survive. If we understand this, we can more eagerly participate with God in restoring an environment that is conducive to being human.

The reign of Christ is such an environment. Story after story in scripture attests to a reign in which a new authority is established, one that will help us to fulfill our human potential. Christ, as head of this new order, sends out a band of vulnerable disciples to reshape violent reality into an environment for human flourishing (Luke 10:1-6). This is what we should be doing.

Christ the King is aware that his kind of reign carries a price. The price is that we who follow Christ must now be a different kind of people in the world. Moved deeply by the woman who washes his feet, Jesus models a disruption to the patriarchal kingdoms by teaching the disciples to wash each other’s feet. No longer can we live capriciously or aimlessly, following our every whim and addiction. No longer can we live as if only some people are royalty, thereby implying that others are not. Christ’s kingdom has defined all of us as people who create environments conducive to being human. We need only look at the world’s obsession with violence to see how different Christ’s kingdom is.

Consider the HBO series The Sopranos, which has significantly raised the level of violence on television. Last year, producers decided that America’s favorite mob boss had become a little too lovable. The show was presenting a main character who was too cuddly for a hard-edged series. James Gandolfini, as Tony Soprano, had turned down speaking engagements in elementary schools across the country. So, in the third season of The Sopranos, the writers fixed all that. At the end of the season, when Tony’s girlfriend threatened to reveal their affair, Tony strangled her, flinging her body in the air and slamming it to the floor.

What do we Christians do to counter this violence-filled world? We are to be more visible witnesses to Jesus’ reign. In order to do this, we must be willing to be human in an environment of vulnerability; that is, to understand that when we are in relationships with others our humanity is bound up in the other’s humanity. Desmond Tutu illustrates this by describing a light bulb that shone brightly and proudly. "[It] began to strut about arrogantly, quite unmindful of how . . . it could shine so brilliantly, thinking that it was all due to its own merit and skill." One day the light bulb is taken out of the socket and placed on a table. "Try as hard as it could, the light bulb could bring forth no light and brilliance. . . . It had never known that its light came from the power station and that it had been connected to the dynamo by little wires and flexes that lay hidden and unseen and totally unsung.

How do we practice the reign of Christ as an environment in which to be fully human? As Christians we can do this by creating worship spaces. We emphasize the church’s life of worship, in which human identity is elevated as persons find communion with others and God. We then make sense of how the church and world should proceed to operate -- and operate beyond a war involving national, racial and sexual identities. When we learn to worship God in Christ, we learn a different primary identity. Worship helps us see that God has related each of us in a much deeper way than through biology. In Christ’s reign the truest community is not biologically connected. Jesus describes his true family by asking, "Who is my mother, and who are my brothers?" (Matt. 12: 46-40; Mark 3: 31-35; Luke 8:19-21). Pointing to his disciples, he says, ‘Here are my mother and my brothers! For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother" (Matt. 12: 48-50).

What should we be doing? People should not kill each other because they are black or white, gay or straight, Arab or American, but should instead rejoice in how God has created persons differently so that new meanings and identities are always possible. Unlike many violent societies that seek to "fix" who a person or community is, those in Christ’s reign seek the other person’s best interest. Christ’s reign distinguishes human community from the frenzied animal kingdom. Jesus has taught us to act differently, to be human in such a way that we will no longer crucify God in our midst. We will no longer participate in the destruction of the world.

Heavenly Minded (Luke 18: 9-14; 2 Timothy 4; 6-8, 16-18)

Throughout much of history, opium has been used as a narcotic to ease human suffering. In the Western world, however, opium has become a narcotic of mere escape, usually used by the rich or those who have abandoned life altogether in order to experience the drug. Followers of Jesus learn that the rich share an identity with the desperate: there is no evidence of harmony between how they live life here on earth and how they look up to heaven.

Heaven is a complicated concept. Those who claim to be Christians often justify their oppression of the poor by saying that the poor will have their reward in heaven. During slavery, white Christians told black Christians not to worry about suffering in this life because "we will all go to heaven." Unfortunately, this has also become the identity of Western Christians, who are accused of escaping ideologically from the real world of poverty and disease. We are seen as heavenly minded people with no earthly use. This reasoning led Karl Marx to call Christianity an opiate.

Paul urges Timothy to avoid shallow conceptions of heaven and to avoid oppressing others in order to get there. His lesson to all of us is this: God is saving us now for heaven. We are being saved now to eventually live with God. None of us can say who belongs in heaven. Those with the most despised identities of the times -- i.e., a tax collector -- belong there. Jesus even suggests that our vision of economics on earth should reflect the penitent tax collector’s vision of heaven.

What will heaven be like? In London’s Sunday Telegraph of April 27, cancer-stricken Anglican Archbishop Desmond Tutu remarked in an interview:

I wonder whether they have rum and Coke in Heaven? Maybe it’s too mundane a pleasure, but I hope so -- as a sundowner. Except, of course, the sun never goes down there. Oh, man, this heaven is going to take some getting used to.

What will heaven be like? Scripture leads us to believe that heaven will be the completion of our earthly existence. We will have no need of an exploding star (the sun) or a lifeless planet (the moon) to be our light. We will have no need of jihad because all nations will be healed by eating the leaves of a tree of life. Shouldn’t this make us rejoice? Shouldn’t we take great delight in the knowledge that we will be complete, in need of nothing? We should, but as Tutu points out, we have our own image of what delights us.

If I asked everyone on the planet what do you most desire, what would "complete" you, I would have as many answers as there are people. We should, however, have a common answer as to what heaven is like. Jesus gives us this answer in Luke 18:13, when the tax collector, instead of looking up to heaven, beats his breast and addresses God. "God! Be merciful to me a sinner!"

The ultimate answer to what heaven is like is this: God. The miracle of the tax collector’s spirituality is that in his action of "beating his breast," he is praying for God’s presence. No longer can he do to others as he has done. This way of being on earth -- in prayer -- should be our practice. Heaven is entered into and practiced on earth through repentance and practical change.

In light of tragic national events, I am afraid that our answers to what heaven is like will leave out a common, global response: practices of repentance and practical change that access uninhibited presence with God. Instead, we speak words of vengeance.

Archbishop of Wales Rowan Williams helps us to address our fears. How, he asks, can we be in heaven knowing that others are in hell? In other words: How can heaven be heaven if there is a hell? We must understand heaven as God’s presence through the practices of mercy and humility. We must gain the vision of God’s unrelenting love.

If we don’t look to heaven, bend the knee and pray to the living God, we will cling to visions in which eschatological destruction, hijacked planes and addictive drugs are our basis for understanding our deepest needs. We must seek discernment for how to live here on earth -- not through the stereotypes of "heavenly minded and of no earthly use" Christians or "zealot Shi’ite" Muslims who only wreak havoc -- but by becoming catalysts for governments that write constitutions such as that of South Africa and catalysts for public repentance, vowing never to harm another human being, as with the Truth and Reconciliation Commission in South Africa. A focus on our common relationship in heaven helps us find synthesis in the catholic (universal) church that is commissioned to move alongside suffering communities into redemption and the healing of the nations.

Our answer to what heaven is like should be a common answer -- uninhibited presence with God. As Tutu said:

It is enough just to be there. You know how it is when you are sitting with someone you love and hours can go by in what seem like moments? Well, in heaven, eternity itself will pass in a flash. In heaven we will never tire. We will never be bored because there will always be such new sides of God that will be revealed to us.

Gasping For Air (Isaiah 1: 10-18)

‘When you stretch out your hands, I will hide my eyes from you; even though you make many prayers, I will not listen; your hands are full of blood" (Isa. 1:15b).

Instead of perpetuating a world of violence, Isaiah proposes a vision that demands another reality -- a reality that requires peacemaking: doing good, seeking justice, rescuing the oppressed, defending the orphan and pleading for the widow. These skills enable the people of God to envision a future even in the midst of destruction. This doesn’t sound like the world we know, where there is always a war in progress, and diverse people are praying with folded hands for the defeat of their respective enemies. We learn from Isaiah, however, that our enemies are not external to us, they are in fact us -- with hands full of blood. Anglican Archbishop Desmond Tutu notes that instead of urging Peter to a violent response, Jesus said to him, "Feed my sheep." For Tutu, to ask Peter to do this "is almost like asking a thief to become your treasurer." How does one turn an angry fisherman into a shepherd?

It is terrifying to think that God is hidden from us -- that our rage is often so thick that it obstructs our vision of God. But we have a saving grace. We are called into being by God, who loves diverse human identities back into community. "Come now, let us argue it out," says the Lord. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be like snow."

God’s being is relatedness; that is, God creates through God’s tendency to "be for us." God is before everything else, then calls all other relationships into being. When our minds are tuned to violence, when our hands "are full of blood," we do not believe in a God of relatedness. We do not understand such a God. Herein is the tragedy of the Lord’s words, "I will hide my eyes from you." Even though we reach out our hands, we have failed to wash them of violence. If we give even a furtive glance toward violence, we cannot see God’s eyes.

The good news, however, is that God does not allow eye contact to be broken for very long. Restoration of eye contact is the return to community -- "Come, now." I call this communal life the church. A Christian cannot claim complete autonomy or control of the self. He or she understands reality differently, not simply individually, but as community. To become the community called the church means that we learn how to return God’s gaze without practicing violence in the world. When we do so, God gives us our vision back.

When we repent of our violent tendencies, we admit the need to be transformed, to become people who can acknowledge their need of a shepherd. We understand that God does not love us because we are lovable, but that we are lovable precisely because God loves us. God’s love is what gives us our worth. It liberates us from the desire to kill, to rape, to bomb out of vengeance because we know these practices repulse God.

We depend upon Christ to see God’s eyes, to know what makes them sad, to know what makes them glad and to pray so that God listens. Christ’s eyes reveal the salvation of the world, but such a revelation does not require control or domination on our part; nor does it require a "new heaven and a new earth" already complete on earth. Instead, we are made in the imago dei, and God created us to be responsible for others. We even see our identity through others because God desired that our movement toward God’s life involve participation in the divine life, a life that implies freedom and not violence.

Christ illumines the relationship between the grace of God and those with bloody hands in such a way that we can work with God in the salvation of creation. The disciples could see God in Jesus only by seeing his hands and head bloodied by others. In this synergy of salvation, God’s eyes are no longer hidden and our prayers are heard. This synergy, however, requires a passionate search for God, to see God without obstruction.

There is a story of young disciple in India who left home and traveled in search of a spiritual master whom he at last found sitting in prayer beside a river. The young man begged the master to teach him.

The master rose slowly, then suddenly grabbed the younger man and dragged him into the river and under the water. Seconds passed, then a minute, then another minute. The young man struggled and kicked, but still the teacher held him down until at last he drew him coughing and gasping out of the water.

"While you were under the water, what was it you wanted?" the teacher asked, when he saw that the other was at last able to speak again.

"Air," the young man said, still panting.

"And how badly did you want it?"

"All . . . it was all I wanted in the world. With my whole soul I longed only for air."

"Good," said the teacher. "When you long for God in the same way that you have just now longed for air, come back to me and you will become my disciple."

In a violent world, each of us is the young disciple in need of such intense washing. When we look and pray to God without hands full of blood, God’s eyes will no longer be hidden from us and our prayers will be heard.

Faith on Idle (2 Thessalonians 3:6-13)

"For we hear that some of you are living in idleness, mere busybodies, not doing any work. Now such persons we command and exhort in the Lord Jesus Christ to do their work quietly and to earn their own living. Brothers and sisters, do not be weary in doing what is right" (2 Thess. 3:11-13).

In 1971, British child psychoanalyst D. W Winnicott was approached by Anglican priests and asked to solve the following dilemma: How does one distinguish between a person’s need for spiritual counsel and the need for psychoanalysis? Winnicott was caught off guard. He paused, and then responded, "If a person comes and talks to you and, listening to him, you feel that he sustains your interest, no matter how grave his distress or conflict, then you can help him. . . . But if he is boring you, then he is sick and needs psychiatric treatment."

Many Christians are caught in a quagmire -- idle in living out our faith and thus boring when we speak about our lives in the faith. If we also fail to understand why we bore others, we are missing the lesson that Winnicott and the apostle Paul seek to teach us. Imagine watching an athletic event and seeing an athlete fall to the ground in what is apparently a severe injury. If one sees the athlete writhing in pain and moving all of her limbs, one should sigh with relief, for she will most likely recover. But if the athlete is not moving, then one assumes the worst.

Paul was teaching the church at Thessalonica. Winnicott was trying to teach Anglican clergy in England. Both explained that in their spiritual lives many people are like the athlete who lies motionless on the field -- paralyzed, depressed, unconscious or dead. These people no longer lead a dynamic life because they have lost all concept of living. In spiritual terms they have lost hope for life and become idle in their work and faith. They "perform" their Christianity only as a monotonous routine. Prayer becomes a monologue.

If we bore others, we may be revealing our own psychological distress. To be bored, however, is something else. According to Winnicott, being bored is an ordinary, necessary and oddly desirable part of everyday life. A young child’s capacity to be bored, for example, is closely linked o his or her capacity to play contentedly alone while in the presence of a parent. This capacity to be alone reflects a welcome developmental achievement and is a sign of psychological health. As Robert Dykstra states, "The capacity to be bored may serve as something of an antidote to the emotional terror hidden in the act of being boring."

Child psychoanalyst Adam Phillips explains that boredom is a process of tension in which a person is both waiting for an event and looking for an event. The tension of waiting and looking can lead either to a secretly negotiated hope or a recurrent sense of emptiness. If it is the latter, true desire dies on the vine and turns into hopelessness.

The lesson for church leaders is that we are to address the bored and idle among us by gently fostering hope. This demands that we not rush to alleviate boredom, but that we negotiate true desire over hopelessness. As Paul teaches us, true desire is found in Christ. In the garden of Gethsemane, Christ resisted a premature flight from uncertainty that would have circumvented the negotiation of hope for us all. In him, we are rescued from an idleness that would otherwise be our ultimate end.

We must neither sabotage a person’s boredom nor avoid cultivating hope where we see boredom. Dykstra suggests that the process of sermonizing is indicative of the creative work that we must do to take others from an idle, passive faith to an engaged, vital faith:

Unless the preacher and text alike first become vulnerable to the other while holding at bay outside authorities that include ecclesiastical doctrines and traditions, there can be little hope that preacher or text will inspire anyone else. If the minister refuses to be changed by and, more provocatively, to "change" the biblical text in this early encounter, the resulting sermon will almost invariably paralyze and bore rather than touch and transform.

Christ invites us into the true desire of hope for all the world. Be warned, says Paul. There will be places in the Christian journey where we will need to negotiate hope in our weariness, and action out of our idleness. "Brothers and sisters, do not be weary in doing what is right." Like the athlete who falls to the ground, struggle with all your soul and body to rise up and finish the race. This means that you will sometimes pray without words, and do good in the absence of reward.

Mission in Mexico

The woman sitting next to me on a five-hour bus ride from Puebla to Oaxaca, Mexico, opened her Bible to the "Segunda Epístola de San Pedro Apóstol" -- 2 Peter. The "1" of the first chapter was circled and various verses were underlined. This was a well-used Bible. I asked, "¿Es cristiana?" She nodded and immediately asked if I was. Yes, I told her. It was like passing the secret handshake.

Her name was Grata, and we soon determined that she attends the same church in Oaxaca as the family I was going to visit, that she knew my friend Noemi, and that I knew her brother, a gifted leader of the church’s prison ministry team and occasional lay preacher.

Grata asked how many years I had been a Christian. I thought a moment and replied, "Many." Her answer was much more precise, more in keeping with the norms of Mexican Protestantism: nine years. Grata and her church are part of the evangelical Protestant movement that is sweeping across Mexico and much of Latin America.

Congregants as well as pastors of other local churches have variously identified Grata’s church as "Pentecostal," "neo-Pentecostal" or "charismatic." Any of these names makes sense in terms of the church’s emphasis on the "fire" of God’s presence and baptism in the Holy Spirit, a fire that is burning away the dead underbrush of cultural Catholicism; on the outward expression of this personal experience, especially glossolalia; and on the inner work of sanctification, which preachers describe as the process of being conformed to Christ or Christ being formed within us.

But the church’s pastor emphasizes the importance of being Christian and downplays the importance of being Pentecostal, neo-Pentecostal, Protestant or a member of any denomination. "Our emphasis [is] neither Pentecostal nor charismatic, but simply Christian," he told me; this church is a "Christian church." He refers to his congregants as "Christians without surname" and distinguishes between "Christians" and the "religious."

Like other Mexican Protestants, this pastor equates "religion" with weekly rites and empty formalities -- which, in turn, are associated with Catholicism -- as opposed to "faith," a way of life which centers on belief in Jesus Christ. He also refers to himself not as a "Protestant" but as a "Christian" (or an "evangelical"), an umbrella term that, according to Mexican Protestants, covers followers of Christ ranging from Pentecostals to Presbyterians to various nondenominational gatherings but excludes Catholics, Mormons and Jehovah’s Witnesses.

This "Christian church" has more than 1,500 members, making it the largest evangelical church in Oaxaca -- and it continues to grow apace. It hosts a monthly evangelistic event which regularly attracts 400 to 500 people and claims new converts. A couple of times a year the pastor baptizes dozens of adult believers in a river. The congregation has outgrown its building and often rearranges its Sunday meeting schedule and location to accommodate the many worshipers. Recently the church enclosed part of its courtyard, enabling the overflow crowd to participate in the service through closed-circuit television. Mission groups travel outside the city to plant and nurture new faith communities. To date, according to the pastor, it has planted about 60 missions.

In the past half century, the Protestant presence in Oaxaca has proliferated from a few isolated outposts to an impressive number of house churches, church buildings and Bible institutes. Today the city has some 200 churches and an equal number of pastors, three dozen of whom belong to an association of Oaxacan pastors. Pastor Victor, the leader of this citywide organization, said that it is composed of Baptists, Methodists, Nazarenes and Presbyterians, but also the full gamut of Pentecostal groups.

According to Pastor Victor, "Oaxaca is one of those states with very strong Catholic fanaticism. At the city level, Catholicism has dominated. But in recent years the evangelical church has advanced in the establishment of groups and also in the growth of members. I believe it’s a very special time for the evangelical church with regard to its development and with regard to the founding of churches in the city, which is the goal: to have at least one or two churches in all of the neighborhoods." The majority of these churches begin in homes, he explained. In striking contrast to the large and very visible Catholic churches, house churches and unmarked church buildings mask to the casual observer the true extent of the Protestant presence in Oaxaca. Protestant numbers are significant enough to raise Catholic fears and Protestant hopes.

According to the 1990 census, 3.3 million Mexicans (4.7 percent of the population) identify themselves as Protestants; in states such as Oaxaca and Morelos, however, over 7 percent identify themselves as such. Some Protestant and Catholic leaders claim that the government’s statistics are off and that as many as one-third of their compatriots are now "Christians," suggesting that Protestant percentages rival those in neighboring Guatemala. Regardless of the exact numbers, the Protestant rate of growth in this once-solidly Catholic country is striking. Government figures indicate that between 1970 and 1990 the number of Mexican Protestants grew by more than 280 percent. Although the 2000 census has not yet been published, all indications are that the Protestant presence continues to increase in numbers and importance.

This tremendous growth comes with conflict. The day after I met Grata, I attended a service at her church, much of which was devoted to commemorating the ministry of a pastor from the nearby pueblo of Palo Grande. Like many Protestants in the Mexican countryside, this pastor has suffered persecution. When his life and ranch were seriously threatened, he responded by placing a gun and a Bible side by side, saying he chose the latter.

Stories of religious conflict of various sorts are common, especially in rural areas where Protestants are viewed as divisive forces that threaten to unravel the 500-year-old weave of Catholic and indigenous traditions. In Chiapas, where Protestants make up at least one-sixth of the population, tens of thousands have been driven from their pueblos. Noemi’s grandfather, who had converted to Protestantism while living in the U.S., returned to his home in the mountains of Oaxaca state, where he converted his family and much of his pueblo, then preached in surrounding pueblos. He was threatened because of the profound changes he sparked in these Zapotec-speaking communities. (The Wycliffe Bible Translators/Summer Institute of Linguistics has since translated the New Testament into the dialect spoken there.) Protestants in urban areas are more likely to face family conflict or social isolation rather than bodily harm for practicing "not-Catholic" Christianity.

Urban Catholics express more puzzlement than overt hostility regarding what their church leaders call the invasion of the "sects." And, like their leaders, they tend to lump all non-Catholic Christians together, expressing little understanding of the distinctions between, say, members of the Church of Christ and the Jehovah’s Witnesses who knock on their doors. The latter have prompted some Mexicans to post signs that say, "This home is Catholic -- we don’t accept propaganda." A Protestant in the city of Cuernavaca told me that the (Catholic) men with whom he plays soccer respect him but keep their distance. Such distance is likely to be due to a combination of factors, including Protestant proselytizing and censure of certain Catholic beliefs and practices.

The practices of Mexican folk Catholicism center on saints and manifestations of the Virgin Mary. Churches bearing the names given to these manifestations -- Carmen, Guadalupe, Soledad -- feature large images of the Virgin. Through fiestas each locale celebrates its patron saint’s day, with lively bands, dancing, drinking, fireworks and, often, a carnival-like atmosphere. Protestants censure such activities and have on occasion been arrested for failing to support them, since their refusal to buy candles and liquor or to otherwise join in the festivities is considered divisive and harmful to local economic interests.

Despite their differences, members of Protestant churches generally accept one another as "hermanos" (brothers and sisters), "cristianos" (Christians), "evangélicos" (evangelicals) or "creyentes" (believers). This identity may best be understood as "not-Catholic." For Protestants, "Christian" means "evangelical" and points to three interrelated characteristics, all of which serve to define Mexican Protestantism over against Catholicism. First, for them faith is a conscious and personal decision. Becoming a Protestant (or "Christian") requires a second birth, a rupture in one’s worldly identity. Like Grata, most Protestants can recall precisely when this decision was made.

Second, Protestants act on the belief that they are called to share the "good news" with Catholic family, friends and co-workers. This evangelistic imperative may create considerable tension with those on the receiving end of personal testimony, books, cassettes and invitations to evangelistic events. Third, Protestants take the Bible as the supreme authority in matters of faith and practice. The fastest growth is occurring in noncreedal congregations with little or no religious hierarchy -- that is, among Pentecostals.

Missing in Protestant churches are all images and symbols. Though some prominently display Mexican flags or verses of scripture, none has a cross, let alone a crucifix, and few Mexican Protestants wear crosses. There are no candles, bells, incense or liturgical colors. Pastors do not wear religious vestments. Services have very low or no liturgy even for communion, which is served infrequently.

In a sense, Protestants are turning the historical tables on Catholics. Much as Hernán Cortés sought to convert the indigenous people to the Christian faith, Mexican Protestants seek to convert Catholics to their vision of true Christianity. The phenomenal success of Protestants’ efforts, in fact, has been likened to a second spiritual conquest. Other observers refer to the surge of evangelical Protestantism as Latin America’s Reformation.

The depth of this reform represents a challenge, not just to the prevailing faith but to the prevailing culture. In Mexico, these Protestant churches run counter to the still-pervasive Catholic culture and thus represent a break in the link between religion and culture. Their refusal to participate in religio-cultural festivals separates them from family members who do. Men do not take machismo’s exaggerated masculinity as their model for behavior, which isolates them from friends who do. Finally, Protestants break with two of Mexico’s primary national and cultural symbols, the Virgin of Guadalupe (the patron saint or "mother" of Mexico), who is said to have appeared to a Mexican peasant in the 16th century, and the pre-Hispanic plumed serpent-god, Quetzalcóatl.

Protestant-Catholic antagonisms in Mexico are disturbing on at least two levels. They represent an obstacle in Mexico’s slow and fitful progress toward religious (and political) tolerance. And they reflect an exclusive brand of Protestantism. I was able to gain an immediate "in" with Grata because I had learned to give the "right" answers in Bible studies. I knew that telling her I was an elder in my church would probably hurt my chances of acceptance, since she and her fellow believers do not ordain women. I also knew that they would consider my home church as too "religious." Even after we had spent months worshiping, praying and studying together, Mexican Protestants would ask me, as I asked Grata, "¿Es cristiana?" I had to constantly reassess what it means to be a Christian.

A New Kind of Church?

Last spring the Nashville Convention Center played host to both the National Pastors Convention and the Emergent Convention. While the former was largely geared toward evangelical baby boomers, the latter catered to Gen X and Millennial evangelicals (and "postevangelicals") who are trying to come to grips with postmodernity. Though the two conventions intentionally overlapped, that proximity suggests a closer kinship than may actually exist. Indeed, the professed goal of many in the "Emerging Church" is to embody an alternative to the model of the Willow Creek, seeker-driven church that blankets the contemporary evangelical landscape like kudzu on a southern hillside.

At first glance the differences between the two conventions seemed to be primarily stylistic: the Emergent music was hipper, the videos faster, the clothes trendier, the technology more sophisticated. But for many of the Emergent leaders, the convention’s flashiness did more to confuse than to clarify the nature of the emerging church.

"For the most part, the general sessions just look like an extension of the megachurch movement and the ‘rah-rah’ youth movement -- feelings and loudness," complained Robert Webber, one of the main speakers -- as if "the louder you can be, the more direct relationship you have with God." Adds Webber, professor of ministry at Northern Baptist Seminary: "There’s nothing here in the public face that lifts you theologically or lifts you into liturgy or anything that has historic connection or depth or substance."

Webber’s critique gets to the heart of a major question for the "emerging church": as younger generations of evangelicals find themselves dissatisfied with the dominant expressions of "contemporary" church, will they simply engage in a change of style, seeking relevance for a new generation, or will they engage in a change of substance, including a more radical rethinking of the evangelical project?

Brian McLaren, one of the most important figures in the Emergent conversation, would be the first to agree that a change of style alone would miss the mark. To make evangelical revivalism hipper or louder, he says, does not change the fact that it is still just "emotional manipulation." Neither rap music nor video loops will provide the needed change, since, as he emphasizes, "the real core of this thing is theological."

"This thing" to which he refers began in the 1990s when a group of young evangelical leaders initiated a conversation (they still prefer to call it a "conversation" rather than a movement") about renewing the church for mission in a postmodern world. The dialogue grew out of a sense of both crisis and opportunity.

For evangelicals, the crisis involved their tradition’s theological rigidity, superficial worship and ingrown subculture, and the inability of the boomer-driven megachurches to capture the imaginations of Gen-Xers and Millennials.

At the same time, the mainline churches were facing their own crisis involving declining membership (especially among younger generations), clergy shortages, and deep polarization over issues such as human sexuality. The very churches that had sought to be relevant to the modern world (each in its own way) had become irrelevant to and ill-equipped for the post-modern world.

Overshadowing the sense of crisis, however, has been a contagious sense of opportunity -- a belief that the time is right for churches to reshape themselves as thoroughly missional communities. Doing this will require moving beyond the sterile polarities that have defined the church in the modern era: liberal vs. conservative, traditional vs. contemporary, reason vs. experience, faith vs. science, megachurch vs. maintenance church.

The 15 people who make up the Emergent Coordinating Group may constitute the organizational heart of the movement, but the Emergent conversation itself happens primarily at the grassroots level through Web sites, Web logs (or "blogs"), regional cohorts and conferences. The conversation is amorphous by design, since the goal is to cast the net of renewal as widely a possible.

More than 1,400 people met for the Emergent Conventions in San Diego and Nashville this past spring. The list of main speakers reflected the growing theological diversity of the conversation: writer and poet Kathleen Norris, social activist Jim Wallis, Episcopal writer Phyllis Tickle, postmodern (and Roman Catholic) philosopher John Caputo -- hardly the "usual suspects" at an evangelical conference. And though the majority of the participants were from conservative denominations, Vineyard churches or nondenominational churches, there was no shortage of representation from the United Methodist Church, the Presbyterian Church (U.S.A.) and the Episcopal Church.

"We realized very early on that we weren’t going to find the intellectual resources we needed in the evangelical world, so we were either going to have to create them or borrow them," notes McLaren. "And it turned out that a lot of us were reading the same people, who would be more respected in the mainline world, such as Walter Brueggemann, Jürgen Moltmann and Stanley Hauerwas. What happened is we started to identify ourselves as postconservative and then we found out that there was almost a parallel movement going on in the postliberal world. And the affinities that we had were very, very strong."

These affinities grew out of a common desire to get beyond "liberal" and "conservative" ways of thinking about scripture, mission and theology. "When you have a liberal way of being a Christian and a conservative way of being a Christian that are both modern, and modernity is over," McLaren reasons, "you’ve got to find another way of being a Christian."

Emergent evangelicals had bumped up against the limits of what George Lindbeck has called their "cognitive-propositional" approach to doctrine -- faith as assent to propositional truths -- but unlike earlier generations they no longer believed their only other option was to become traditionally "liberal." Postliberalism, with its emphasis on culture and language, narrative and community, character and virtue, opened possibilities for being theologically serious and doctrinally orthodox while avoiding the restrictive biblicism of the evangelical world.

The challenges faced by evangelicals and mainliners are in some ways mirror images of each other. McLaren observes that "conservatives tend to be rigid theologically and promiscuous pragmatically and liberals tend to be rigid methodologically and a lot more free theologically." His proposal is simple: "Maybe we could trade."

The convention largely confirmed his observation. At its best it created space for such "trades" to happen. For example, at a breakfast conversation sponsored by the Emerging Women Leaders Initiative, women from main-line churches shared powerful words of hope and encouragement with evangelical women who struggle to have a voice in their traditions. On the other side, the creative and lively worship at the convention struck a chord with many mainliners, whose worship has often lacked such energy and passion. The trading continued as evangelicals, many of whom dismissed the techno-savvy worship with a "been there, done that," plied the mainliners for ideas about renewing worship through liturgy. The cross-pollination was intense and enriching.

As important as the mainline-evangelical conversation is, McLaren sees something else going on. "I think the real story is both evangelicals and the mainline learning from Catholics."

The emerging church is not shy about raiding the storehouses of the Roman Catholics, the Orthodox and the Anglicans for richer liturgies as well as prayer beads, icons, spiritual direction, lectio divina and a deeper sacramentality. The return to ancient faith and practice is increasingly seen as a way forward in churches polarized by worship wars and theological intransigence.

Thus, emerging churches often characterize themselves as "ancient-future," a phrase that comes from a series of books authored by Webber (Ancient-Future Faith, Ancient-Future Evangelism, Ancient-Future Time). This return to the past should not be confused with a nostalgia for 1950s Protestantism or with a circling of the wagons around a purer Reformation theology. The return is deeper, looking to the treasures of the medieval and patristic theologies and to practices that have long been ignored by evangelicals.

The convention tipped its hat to the ancient by constructing a portal to the past in the form of a prayer labyrinth. Convention goers passed from the fluorescent daytime of the convention hallway into the darkness of the sacred space, dimly lit by candles. The labyrinth filled the room. One by one participants filed in to walk the path of prayer. But unlike the ancients, these postmodern pilgrims carried portable CD players which guided them through the journey and provided ambient music. Along the way, walkers paused at stations to engage in spiritual exercises. A stone and a bucket of water, a map and a compass, bread and wine all became instruments of prayer and meditation.

Despite the undeniable power of these retrieved practices, one must wonder if the incense, candles, labyrinths and all the rest are being retrieved simply because they’ve become cool. Tangible, multisensory worship has a currency among younger generations, and this is all to the good. But if this recovery is linked only to generation and style, what will happen when styles change?

"I think the major problem is that you may be rediscovering the ancient as a new gimmick," comments Webber. "If you don’t do the theological thinking that stands behind liturgy and sacrament and all the kinds of things that are part and parcel of the classical tradition, this will just fade out. It will have no staying power. The next generation is going to come along and do something different."

If a practice is reintroduced simply because it meets the needs or desires of a generation, it will only reinforce the modern penchant for novelty. One test for the emerging church will be whether ancient practices are retrieved as practices or simply as preferences.

Unlike the megachurch and church growth movements of the 1980s and ‘90s, emerging churches resist models and templates -- the franchising of church life. Instead they tend to emphasize the particular gifts of the local community and the creative involvement of the laity. Karen Ward, pastor of Church of the Apostles in Seattle, wrote in a recent blog, "In the emerging church the people shift from being consumers of church to producers of church."

Holly Rankin Zaher, a member of the Emergent Coordinating Group, and her husband, Jim, are founding members of Three Nails, an Episcopal church plant near Pittsburgh. Jim describes it as "a cell group thing that looks incredibly different from other Episcopal churches. Right now we have six cell groups, and that’s where the core is. People ask us where our church is and we say, ‘Well, it’s not,’ because we have groups meeting all over Pittsburgh. We don’t own a building, we just rent a place where we meet as a group once a month."

Reflecting on what makes Three Nails a new kind of church, Jim immediately points to the communal sharing of ministry. "At our corporate meetings the liturgy really is ‘the work of the people.’ You could come in sometimes and ask ‘Is there a priest here?’ There is a priest, but the people aren’t just plugged into set roles -- acolytes, readers; for us it changes each week." The laity is involved not just in leading worship but in creating worship.

Though no two gatherings are exactly the same, a typical evening might begin with corporate worship and then break up for participants to work their way through a series of interactive stations flanking the worship space. At each station the participant would encounter a passage of scripture to be read, a prayer to be said, a question for reflection, an image to be viewed, an activity to be engaged in, or all of the above. The community would then join together to share the Eucharist, after which they would break into small groups for prayer.

If "contemporary worship" and "seeker services" looked like Christian versions of rock concerts, emerging worship looks more like a Christian version of Starbucks. Small spaces, comfortable seating (preferably couches) and interactivity are prized. But here, alongside the accouterments of cafe culture, are the very signs of Christian identity that had been purged by the iconoclasm of Willow Creek and its descendants. Candles and crosses, bread and wine, incense and altars create an eclectic, ancient-future blend with the video projection screens, electric guitars, and televisions rolling looped images like postmodern icons. The ambiance evokes more the art gallery than the arena, and the technological elements are intentionally subdued, made subservient to personal connection and spiritual reflection.

Emerging worship tends to be multisensual, multilayered, and multimedia. Its embrace of art and image link it more strongly to an iconic history than to traditional Protestant worship. The integration of media clips from popular culture seeks to bridge the gap between Sunday and Monday, sacred and secular, recognizing that God is often found in unlikely places.

This heavily lay-led movement tends to gravitate toward nondenominational, house church models disconnected from a larger body, both in terms of support and accountability. Such a view of the church suggests that modernity still has a foothold in this self-proclaimed "postmodern" conversation. In Emergent rhetoric one hears echoes of the Enlightenment-era suspicion of authority and the tendency toward privatizing and individualizing faith.

A lingering distrust of the "institutional church" has made partnership with mainline denominations difficult. For their part, mainline churches have generally failed to create space for new expressions of church to thrive.

It seems clear, however, that emergents and mainliners need each other. The traditional denominations could benefit from the creative energy of the emerging churches, while the emerging communities could benefit from the rich resources and history of the larger body.

Rowan Williams, the archbishop of Canterbury, recently issued a call to the Church of England that speaks to this challenge; "We have to ask whether we are capable of moving towards a more ‘mixed economy’ -- recognizing church where it appears and having the willingness and the skill to work with it. Mission, it’s been said, is finding out what God is doing and joining in. And at present . . . more and more patterns of worship and shared life are appearing on the edge of our mainstream life that cry out for our support, understanding and nurture if they are not to get isolated and unaccountable."

While emerging churches talk a lot about being relevant to postmodern culture, they are also aware that there is a danger in relevance. Lauren Winner, author of Girl Meets God, posed the question this way at the convention: "How do you simultaneously attend to the culture and be a pocket of resistance? You can’t be a pocket of resistance without attending . . . but I still think people come to church when church is different from the world, when there is something noticeably ecclesial in the broadest sense, when church seems like church rather than a shopping mall."

An Emergent definition of relevance, modulated by resistance, might run something like this; relevance means listening before speaking; relevance means interpreting the culture to itself by noting the ways in which certain cultural productions gesture toward a transcendent grace and beauty; relevance means being ready to give an account for the hope that we have and being in places where someone might actually ask; relevance means believing that we might learn something from those who are most unlike us; relevance means not so much translating the churches language to the culture as translating the culture’s language back to the church; relevance means making theological sense of the depth that people discover in the oddest places of ordinary living and then using that experience to draw them to the source of that depth (Augustine seems to imply such a move in his reflections on beauty and transience in his Confessions). Relevance might simply mean wanting to understand why so many young people have said that attending U2’s Elevation Tour and hearing Bono close the show with choruses of "Hallelujah" was like being in worship (but a whole lot better).

This kind of relevance will also include the recognition that the church becomes relevant precisely by offering something that the culture does not. In a loud and frenzied world, that may mean creating a space where people can bask in silence and rest in liturgical rhythms. In a world of superficial entertainment, it may mean throwing parties that nurture deep and authentic community. In these ways relevance and resistance begin to look more like dance partners and less like competing suitors for the church’s soul.

Perhaps "relevant-resistant" is another way of naming the "incarnational" church. To incarnate the reign of God means to take on local flesh, to speak the vernacular, to dive deep into the cultural particularities of a time and place. But as Jesus shows, to embody God’s word in a time and place is both to participate in the world of the fallen and to offer an alternative to that world. The emerging church, to be anything other than a hip blip on the radar of American religion, will need to live the tension of "relevant-resistant" no less than it lives the tension of "ancient-future."

What will become of this movement at the end of the day when the fog machines and video projectors are packed away? Will the emerging church be able to sustain its focus on theological renewal without being coopted by trends, hype and marketing? Will it turn out to be just another instance of narcissistically reinventing the church to suit one’s own preferences? Or will the gaze begin to turn outward toward transformative mission?

I left the convention cautiously hopeful. I am attracted to the pragmatic ecumenism of Emergent, whose goal is not to create a unified structure at the top but to recognize that the churches are going to need an exchange of gifts at the grassroots. I am intrigued by the creative possibilities of ancient-future worship -- liturgical structure overlaid with image, music and movement, technologically aware but refusing to flaunt it. I am heartened by the search for a theological "third way -- a generous orthodoxy that may yet arise from the dialogue of postconservatives and postliberals. I am encouraged by the vision of a truly missional church, both relevant and resistant, that incarnates a real alternative to mainline "maintenance" churches and evangelical "megachurches."

So often the church is renewed "from the edges, not the center," as Rowan Williams has pointed out. As we attend to what is emerging at the edges of the American scene, we would do well to keep that lesson in mind and to heed Williams’s further advice: "Be grateful for new things happening, even if they are not easily digestible."

Long Division (Acts 1:6-14 .John 17:1-11)

A person’s final words are important. When they are out of character or trivial, we remember them with some embarrassment. Elvis Presley, for example, supposedly said, "I’m going to the bathroom to read." Well-spoken words, on the other hand, provide a fitting conclusion to a life and encouragement for those who remain. This week’s lectionary readings juxtapose two sets of final words, one from John’s Gospel as Jesus prepares to go to his death, and another from Acts as he prepares to ascend into heaven. Given this one last opportunity to say what needed to be heard and remembered by his disciples, Jesus’ attention centers on our unity and our witness, which turn out to be one and the same thing.

Every fall my university begins the school year with a mass of the Holy Spirit. It is a beautiful liturgy that includes the opportunity for faculty and staff to pray a blessing over the students. The service creates a strong sense of unity in our common goal of educating the whole person. Then we celebrate the Eucharist. The great thanksgiving overflows with references to the unity established by this sacrament, but when all rise to receive it, some of us stay seated. As a Protestant I am not invited to the table. I don’t take this personally, as I understand the Catholic Church requirement that ecclesial unity must be reached before we can share the Lord’s Supper. Lacking that unity, the table becomes a reminder of our brokenness. I wonder (as I sit and sing "We Are One Body") who else feels the brokenness. Do the priests notice those who do not receive? Does it pain the presider that the gathered flock is, in fact, not one body?

Unfortunately, the pain of Christian division is rarely felt by any of us. We seem to have become complacent about our denominational and racial divisions. We cover the gaping wound in Christ’s body with thin appeals to personal preference: "There is a church out there for everyone; join the one that fits you best!" We take something that should be a scandal and treat it as an asset. We think about denominational differences as consumer options. Will it be Jiff or Skippy, Eddie Bauer or the Gap, Presbyterian or Lutheran? Choose the style that works for you.

But in the biblical text, this laissez-faire attitude is a contradiction of the gospel. John recounts that Jesus prays, "Holy Father, protect them in your name . . . so that they may be one, as we are one." Why does Jesus specifically ask God to protect the unity of his followers to guard us against division? To answer this we must proceed a bit further into John’s text: "As you, Father, are in me and I am in you, may they also be in us, so that the world may believe that you have sent me . . . so that the world may know that you have sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me" (17:21-23).

Jesus’ language seems circular, but as the relationships are untangled one thing becomes clear: the unity of Christ’s followers is not incidental to our salvation. As we are made one with Christ so we are made one with the Father. But we are one with Christ only if we are one with each other. Our fellowship with God depends upon our unity, as does our witness to the world -- we are to be one "so that the world may believe" that Jesus is from God and that God loves us (John 17:21,23).

Just before his ascension, Jesus tells his disciples that they will receive power from the Holy Spirit to bear witness to him. Reading Acts alongside John, we may surmise that the Spirit empowers us not only for proclamation but also for unity. Notice that after Jesus’ ascension, the apostles immediately chose a replacement for Judas, to restore the unity of the Twelve. When we fail to embody in our communities the peaceful reconciliation that is salvation, when we fail to restore unity, our words about Jesus appear hollow. The solidarity of the church not only enables our witness, it is our witness.

J. R. R. Tolkien’s book The Fellowship of the Ring includes an evocative scene that failed to make it into the movie. The eight who accompany the ring bearer on his journey are men, hobbits, dwarves and elves. In order to defeat the power of the Dark Lord, these historically divided groups must endeavor to work together for a common goal. As the fellowship approaches Lothlórien, an elven region, the elven guard refuses to let Gimli the dwarf pass without a blindfold. The resulting tension threatens to divide the fellowship. But Aragorn, the group’s leader, suggests that if one of them must face this indignity, they will all go blindfolded. Legolas the elf protests: "Alas for the folly of these days! Here all are enemies of the one Enemy, and yet I must walk blind, while the sun is merry in the woodland under leaves of gold!"

"Folly it may seem," says Haldir. "Indeed in nothing is the power of the Dais Lord more clearly shown than in the estrangement that divides all those who still oppose him."

We may take a lesson from Tolkien’s wisdom. The forces of darkness that oppose the ways of God draw strength from the disunity of God’s people. Our calling is not only to proclaim God’s reconciliation but also to live it. Lacking that, our mission to the ends of the earth will appear redundant, reinforcing a division that the world already knows. Better all blindfolded than only one; better yet, all eyes open to the God who makes us one.

To See and Not to See (Acts 17:22-31; John 14:15-21)

About a year and a half ago my wife and I bought our first house. Before we moved in there was a lot to do: hang new curtains, paint, pull up old carpet, install new counter tops and purchase a microwave. Although we are now settled in, I have not been able to kick the habit of perusing the real estate pages of the Sunday paper. The color images of houses for sale catch my eye as I thumb through for the sports page, and before I know it I’m checking prices and comparing square footage. Our family is growing, I tell myself. More children require more space, and for just a little more money we could "trade up" and get a couple more bedrooms . . .

And so it is that just as we finish "remodeling" one home, my eyes are captured by images of the new, by the possibility and excitement that novelty promises. (Hmm, perhaps we’ll need a new car soon -- did someone say minivan?) I feel a bit like those who would line up the pantheon of gods and then say, "Wouldn’t it be nice to have just one more, over here in the corner, to complete the set?"

Novelty is alluring. The new always promises to surpass the old -- and let’s face it, there is always a thrill when we get that new computer or those new clothes. But the new quickly becomes old, and so novelty creates an inexhaustible desire. Our love of novelty can even take on the appearance of a search for truth, when in fact it is only a form of distraction. This seems to have been the case in first-century Athens. The verse leading up to the lectionary reading tells us that "all the Athenians and the foreigners living there would spend their time in nothing but telling or hearing something new" (Acts 17:21). So the crowd was drawn to the Areopagus to hear a "new teaching" about Jesus. The city was "full of idols" -- each new god, each new philosophy added to the last, so that the streets (not unlike our own) offered a plethora of religious products ready for consumption. If one god failed you, or just bored you, there was always another.

While "deeply distressed by all this, Paul nonetheless begins his proclamation not with judgment, but with the observation that the Athenians are "extremely religious." Though one might read a bit of irony or even sarcasm here, Paul extends himself into the world of his audience -- he even quotes their own poets and philosophers. Yet his message is not "apologetic" in any traditional sense. He does not seek to correlate his proclamation with anything they already know to be true. In fact, he takes as his point of departure their lack of knowledge, symbolized in the altar "to the unknown god." He discovers an opening for proclamation not in some natural religious impulse, but in their willingness to confess that there are things they do not know, things they cannot see. Paul recognizes that their attraction to novelty goes hand in hand with the lure of visibility. The novel attracts us only insofar as it is easily grasped. If "seeing" a new truth requires time and training, the novelty inevitably wears off before truth is found. By proclaiming the invisible and the unknown, Paul refuses to let God become just another novelty, just another idol.

The contrast between seeing and not seeing, between God and idols, resonates with the reading from John’s Gospel. In his farewell discourse, Jesus tells the disciples that the world will not be able to see the Spirit nor will it see Jesus, but the disciples will see them both. "Seeing" God is made possible by obedience to the command of Christ. As we are transformed by the commandments we are made able to see God. John’s Gospel emphasizes that no one has seen God except for the Son who comes from God to make him known; so as we see the Son we see also the Father. But not all who simply see the Son with their eyes believe; indeed some see him and hate him and so they do not see the Father. It’s about more than visibility. Jesus comes into the world "so that those who do not see may see, and those who do see may become blind." Our expectations about visibility are reversed. Seeing God turns out to be more difficult than one might have thought, and in fact believing that one can see God (as did the Athenians) proves only that one is blind.

What is required to see God is to become obedient to Jesus’ commands. By this we show we love him and he reveals himself to us. Being trained to see things rightly involves a training in resistance to the glamour of novelty. It is here that the Athenians, with their love of all things new, fell short. The God of Israel refuses to be one God among many. Jesus and the Spirit refuse to be seen by those who will not obey.

St. Augustine tells us that in order to see truth, "The mind should be cleansed so that it is able to see that light and to cling to it once it is seen. Let us consider this cleansing to be as a journey or a voyage home. But we do not come to Him who is everywhere present by moving from place to place, but by good endeavor and good habits." Such good endeavor is so easy and yet so difficult: we have his commandments, now let us keep them.

Sticks and Stones (Ps. 31:1-5; Acts 7:55-60; 1 Ptr. 2:2-10; Jn. 14:1-4)

Who would have thought that being a waiter could be so dangerous? One might expect impatient customers, lousy tips and long hours -- these come with the territory. But more dire consequences? Surely not. Yet in the sixth chapter of Acts Stephen is chosen as one of seven who will "wait on tables," an occupation and a witness that will lead to his death. The 12 apostles must not be distracted from their preaching to attend to the daily distribution of food to the widows. So Stephen becomes a kind of subversive refectory worker, and though he is chosen not to preach but to serve, his witness of caring for the least in the community (Jew and gentile alike) so provokes and challenges the powers that be that he is captured and killed. The first Christian martyr comes not from those preaching the word, but from those feeding the hungry.

The lectionary picks up the story with Stephen preparing for his death. Luke uses this incident to display the cruciform pattern of discipleship. Those who follow Jesus bear witness to him by imitating his own peaceful self-sacrifice. Like Jesus, Stephen is attacked by an angry crowd (see Luke 4:28-29) and taken out of the city. In his last words, Stephen commends his spirit to Jesus, just as Jesus commended his to the Father, and just as the psalmist commended his own suffering to God. Echoes build upon echoes in this text, reminding us that faithful suffering has always been part of the calling for God’s people. As Stephen prays for his enemies and forgives his attackers, "Lord, do not hold this against them," we hear the words of Jesus rattling in our ears, "Father, forgive them" (Luke 23:34).

In the wake of September 11 there was an increase both in church attendance and in gun purchases -- an odd juxtaposition of behaviors. We seem to believe in a God who will preserve our future beyond the grave, but we worry that God may not be all we need on this side. We find it hard to affirm with the psalmist, "My times are in your hand," when the times are so dark and frightening. And so we feel tempted, compelled, to take matters into our own hands. We find it hard to trust that God will deliver us from "enemies and persecutors," and so we seek through force to assure the destruction of the enemy.

The words and witness of Jesus might catch us up short in this project were we not able to convince ourselves that while the way of suffering sacrifice was part of Jesus’ divine mission, it is not part of our calling as his followers. His words about loving enemies are nice in theory, we say, but surely he knew they were impossible for us. Jesus could forgive enemies, but we are not Jesus.

This sentiment echoed loud and clear in a recent church meeting, where one parishioner quoted General Norman Schwartzkopf, "It is God’s job to forgive, it is our job to arrange the meeting." The belief that Jesus’ path of forgiveness does not apply to us is compelling in times of fear and crisis, but it is a belief that Luke does not leave open to us.

Stephen shows that the "impossible ethic" of enemy love is indeed possible, though costly One need not be divine to do what Jesus did. Jesus tells us: "The one who believes in me will also do the works that I do and, in fact, will do greater works than these, because I am going to the Father."

In the simple act of feeding the widow, Stephen does the works of Jesus, but in the process he opens himself to the forces of the world that will not stand for such a witness and he is stoned to death. Yet, in the face of death-dealing stones he clings to Jesus, the Living Stone, who has already passed through death and has taught him the way. And like Jesus, Stephen in his final words recalls Psalm 31, which entreats God: "Be a rock of refuge for me, a strong fortress to save me. You are indeed my rock and my fortress." The Living Stone faces down the stones of death, and Stephen knows where his deliverance lies. "Rock of Ages, cleft for me, / Let me hide myself in Thee."

T S. Eliot’s Murder in the Cathedral dramatizes the martyrdom of Thomas Becket, archbishop of Canterbury, in 1170. The story builds to the final moments when Becket is pulled inside the cathedral by three priests trying to save him from the king’s forces. They bar the door for safety, but Thomas, with a boldness befitting Stephen himself demands:

Unbar the doors! throw open the doors!

I will not have the house of prayer, the church of Christ,

The sanctuary, turned into a fortress..

The church shall be open, even to our enemies.

We are not here to triumph by fighting, by stratagem, or by resistance,

Not to fight with beasts as men. We have fought the beast

And have conquered. We have only to conquer

Now, by suffering. This is the easier victory.

Now is the triumph of the Cross, now

Open the door! I command it. OPEN THE DOOR!

Like Stephen and like Jesus, Thomas went to his death opposing the forces of evil not with power but with faithfulness. Though we are tempted to hide behind barricades, guns and bombs, the stories of the martyrs remind us of the one who overcame evil not by defeating the enemy but by loving the enemy and thus defeating death itself.